I am sorry to say even I am unsure what is going on or what this new path I am taking is exactly. I mean the depression hit full force this time with no warning leading up to it. Then right behind it hit a very bad craving, which have left me in a complete mess because I tend to not be able to stop them either. The mixture of them both have left my mind spinning and racing a hundred miles an hour while the rest of me keeps falling farther and farther behind. Usually I get a warning I am fixing to go into another cycle, a trigger of some sort or another. But not this time. And the cravings have gotten so bad I feel like I was going completely outta my mind for a day or two. I couldn't bear to talk to anyone, all I could do was try to concentrate on not thinking about them which of course makes you think of them more. What a vicious lil circle I had going for a whole minute.

The good news is that as of this morning, the craving has subsided to a lil bit of a nagging voice in the back of my head and the depression has lifted enough that I am outta bed and even going to get dressed in a second or two. To make it all a little bit better too is the knowledge that in less than four days I will be medicated again!!!! YYYYYiiiiiipppppeeeeeeeeee......