4/29/2007
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As I can tell...
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I am talking about the same thing I was talking about 5 months ago. The only difference in the last few months is that I have come to see him a little less like a "God" and a little more like a mere mortal he is. But other than that, we are still basically doing the same thing we have been doing. Keeping the same things hidden. Avoiding the same problems. Talking to the same people. Nothing has changed in this thing except the amount that he talks to her and the amount he lies to me. It doesn't seem fair to me to still be a secret this long but I am guessing that he isn't gonna change it forever. I am forever gonna be the girl in the closet. Or at least I will be until I really get fed up and walk away. He will not change anything until the world pushes him to do so. I am not one to push but he needs to make the choice even if it is hurtful to me. I don't like being in the middle wondering. I just like for the fate to be sealed and not have to worry about it anymore. Know your fate and then deal with it. (How very adult of me!) I am just too tired and there are real people who care about me and want to make things good for me for no other reason then they love me. Yes, I am fuckable. But I am sure that's not the reason that the girls have for wanting me to leave and make myself happy somewhere else. Maybe the men...but most of them are his friends telling me not to put up with it for too much longer or it will just get worse. I just am not sure what I am doing.
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