5/8/2007
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Better and better
| Yesterday was the first day in foever that we seemed to have something for real but I think it was something I did to make him want to be better for the sake of us. Here is how it went: I told him I was going to move out in order to save our relationship. I didn't mean it in the way like we will break up and move on. I just meant in the way like we can live in two separate places with the feelings still intact in order to preserve the whole emotional bonds we still have. I would get my own place and we could still be together. He could come to where I am whenever he wanted and we could go back to being cool to each other. I couldn't be jealous because I couldn't see him fucking up on a daliy basis. He couldn't get jealous because he couldn't see me fucking up either. It would be perfect for the both of us. Well appaently that was the wake up call he needed. He went instantly to this better boyfriend. The best part is that it wasn't like an empty threat. It wasn't a threat at all. I meant that it was probably going to be the best for both of us. At this point anything was worth a try to save the little bit of something we have left for each other. It was to be the move that caused us to get back on track or get us to the point where we could really be done with it without all the hurt. THe thing is I think he knew I meant it and he knew what I was trying to do. He turned around and started to do the same thing I needed him to do for the longest time. He made me important. There it was. And that makes me not feel the need to check behind him to check what he is doing because I believe that he will do the right thing because he loves me. It works out good for the both of us. |
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