Happy Thanksgiving everyone.

I'm thankful for my family.  Lyn, Mariel, Aidan... Jim and Olivia.

We're going to try and make our own Thanksgiving meal, here at the house, so keep your fingers crossed because Lyn and I have not attempted this before!  She's a good cook, so I doubt anything will go wrong.  It'll be FUN though!

My Mother is in town, spending Thanksgiving with her friends actually.  My Grandma is going to my Uncle's house since he and his family are still in town.  (He surprised his family, when they were actually going to go to Detriot and visit him.)

Olivia woke me up at 6:30 AM, probably because she's so used to getting up early in the mornings.  Gotta love her.

Did I mention that it has been 3 years since We lost Xavier (November 22, 2002)?  1 year since we lost Abby (November 4, 2004)?  It's been a tough November for me, adjusting to being able to love my new daughter Olivia and having to live with the loss of her two older siblings.  It doesn't seem like too long ago, but I am thankful that I have her.

Working and being a real full-time Mom has made the heartache from the loss lessen, because I have this beautiful baby to hold and cherish.  It still hurts, don't get me wrong, but it seems more bearable.  Maybe it's the Zoloft talking, or maybe I finally got what I wanted with Olivia.  I couldn't really imagine how different my life would be if I still had Xavier and Abby as well as Olivia.  I've had 3 children total.  Only 1 is still alive, and yet I find that I am still able to be thankful for what I have in this life even if I've been through so much heartache. 

This is the first major holiday since Grandpa passed away.  I still dream about him at night sometimes.  It does make it hard to see Grandma because it's always been Grandpa and Grandma... and she's so depressed.  I visit when I can with Olivia, so she knows we still think about her.  I plan on visiting his burial space on his birthday, the day after Christmas.  This is going to be a tough holiday season for Grandma.  And we can only be here for support.

Anyway, don't want to get all depressing on you.  I'm actually in a good mood.  Feeling loved.