Well, it's Hump Day and I still have yet to know what it's like to have money once again.  Not like I'll have it long, I need to buy tires, buy work clothes, and get baby stuff.  I still have bills, but I'm not going to complain or elaborate on them, because bills are never ending.  We live to dig ourselves deeper and deeper into debt.

I think Jim is going with Terry on Friday to get a toy for Olivia at "Toys for Tots."  It's just a nice gesture and they have some nice toys usually.

I missed the AIG Holiday Party last night.  People were expecting me to go.  I say 'people' and it was about a handful.  A couple even saved a seat for me at their tables.  I do feel bad for not attending, but I just didn't feel like going once I got out of work.  It was raining so terribly the rain was falling sideways and drenching everything in sight.  So what do I do?  I end up going out to eat at Uno's Pizzaria with Jim and Olivia.  I could have had free food at the AIG Holiday Party, but I wouldn't have spent the time with my family.  Maybe someday I'll regret going, but there's always next year.

The search for apartments/other living arrangements is haulted in my mind.  I am broke, and don't really know when I'll have money.  Even though I've been working since November 14th.  I have so much being taken out for taxes and benefits, I'll be getting close to nothing anyway.  Jim has to pay his bills, I need to buy tires before the real snow hits... and I have other things I need to do with my money first.  I can give Lyn soe extra to help here too, but I don't have enough for security and first month's rent right now.  I'll come in time, but I'm in no rush.  Jim is.  We're still looking around, because I think it keeps him occupied... or maybe it hasn't dawned on him that we just don't have the funds for it right now.  It'll have to wait until the 15th of December.

Damn, it'll be December tomorrow.  Only 25 more shopping days until Christmas!  Better get booking!  I haven't even started thinking about Christmas presents yet.  I want it to be a good year.  Any other year I haven't been able to really afford Christmas, but I want to get some nice gifts for my Sisters, my Neice and Nephew, my Daughter....

Speaking of my Daughter... it's 7:15PM and I need to go spend some time with her.  I should be reviewing for my State Specifics Test (Test II) on Friday, but I think quality time with Olivia is really important right now.  I will study tomorrow morning when I get to work.  I'm nervous because I take my first calls on December 6th!  There is still so much that I don't know!  I have faith and confidence in myself, but it's still a new industry for me.  New experiences can always be a bit intimidating.

Anyway, take care of yourself. 

Thanks for listening and spend some quality time with the people you love!

(And don't forget to watch Lost tonight!)