So I took a little hiatus... and now I return.

Test 3 at AIG was returned on Monday.  I got a 95.  I won't provide the results for my classmates because it's rude.  I also got my results back for the final I took Wednesday.  *takes a breath*  I seriously was stressing the final.  I needed an 85% or better.  Well.... to make a really long and dramatic story short *drum roll* I got a 99!  I missed one question.  I looked it over today, and it was such a simple question it's a wonder I missed it!  I must have been dumb for a second. 

I'm too self-critical.  I have my phone assessments tomorrow.  3 phone calls from trainers/quality staff at work that will evaluate my call and ask me to make changes to fake policies.  I think I will do decent, but I need an 81% or better on my 3 assessments.  I should be more confident.  I obviously know my insurance information, but I get extremely nervous.  I shouldn't stress.  I've worked in a call center environment previously.  I love people.  I just stress myself out about everything.

Olivia is doing well.  She's getting bigger and brighter every day!  It's hard working because it feels like I don't get enough bonding time with her and every moment that I can catch is precious.  Mainly because she's only this age once.  I don't want to miss a thing!  Balancing being a mother, being a girlfriend/lover, and being a full-time employee is hard work.  I wanted to look into going back to school and taking some classes in accounting or medical billing/coding.  That would take away more time from Olivia, but I need to focus on my goals for me and for us as a family.

Maybe I'm trying to do too much.  I don't want to spread myself too thin.  I'm still worried about how my Grandma is holding up since my Grandpa died.  His birthday is coming up (the day after Christmas).  I don't call.  I hardly visit.  I know I should, I care about her a lot.  It's just hard to find time.  I say that, and I know that if I cared enough I would find time.  I'm still mourning too.  I find relief in doing other things, and seeing Grams actually makes me hurt more inside.  I think about Grandpa and I think about my late kids.

Jim got me an early Christmas present.  He had plaques engraved with our kids names and birthdays.

Xavier Alexander Fitch

November 22, 2002

Abby Elizabeth Fitch

November 4, 2004

(her given surname was Kilmer-Fitch, but it was too long)

It was really sweet that he thought to do it.  I have been meaning to, and it proves to me more that he does still think about them.  Much like I do.  And that he still cares.  I know to be thankful for having at least 1 healthy child... but it's hard not to miss the two wonderful blessings that I once had.

On a different note, thanks for the information regarding the Creditor hassles.  I need all the help/information I can get!  Those people are ruthless!!!  I had gone to the bank to try and get a loan, but of course I wasn't approved because I have other things on my credit besides the Ford reposession.  Grrr.  *growls some more*

We did get the camcorder via USPS Priority mail.  I think it came on Monday?  I can't really recall.  I have to get a battery for it, a charger, some Hi8 tapes, and the cords to hook it up to the computer and television.  I was thinking I got such a great deal on the camcorder for just $70, and now that I realize that I have to buy all the other things... maybe it wasn't such a good idea to buy it separately.  I called Circuit City for the battery and they were asking for $75.  I call Radio Shack for the battery and it's only $35 there and the charger (which they did not have at Circuit City) is only $40.

Just a helpful hint... and a word of wisdom.  Be sure you read the find print when buying off of Ebay.  It would have been just as easy to go to a retail store to purchase a camcorder with all the accessories included for what I'll end up paying.  It would have been more convenient as well!

Lesson learned.