Today started out bad, with the snow and then arguing with Jim about what to do with Olivia.  He didn't want to take her to the dentist with him or to WIC.  I had asked my cousin if she could watch her today, which she was free... but Jim had wanted me to drop her off before I went to work... pointless.  He could drop her off prior to his scheduled appointment, but he didn't want to responsibility.  Anyway, I left home without Olivia and went to work.  He took care of the rest.

Took my three assessments today.  Passed my last 2 with flying colors.  100 all the way, but I failed my first assessment.  77.  I knew I should have done better, but of course with it being the first call... my nerves were all worked up for nothing.  I can handle it.  I know I can.  I just am too critical with myself.  Oh well.  I have to retake that assessment in a week.  Hopefully I will pass it.  I'm disappointed in myself, but I know what I did wrong.  I know I can improve... and I know it's no big deal because I'm fully capable of handling this position.  I just get worked up over nothing and let my nerves get the best of me.  I need to relax.  I haven't taken my Zoloft in 3 or 4 days.  Maybe that's what's doing it to me.  I have so many scratches from my relentless nervous habit.  I will scratch myself raw because of my nerves and half of the time I don't even realize what I'm doing.

I need to calm down.  Drink a beer and relax.  Yeah right.  Me drink?  I'll just end up being an alcoholic.  I don't want to dredge up any repressed memories from my childhood.  I'm a stable adult.  Stable, I say, Stable!  *crazy laugh*

On a different note, I was unable to attend the 'group' get together at the Mexican place tonight.  By the time I picked Olivia up and got everything settled with Jim, we figured no one would be there anymore.  2 hours after the initial meeting time.  Oops, I'm terrible at keeping engagments.  I hope I'm better at it soon, for my daughter's sake.  I ended up going to the mall.  Went to RadioShak to get the camcorder battery, only to bring it home to find out that it doesn't fit.  I just gave up and ordered the damn battery online at www.Samsungparts.com.  I also was able to order the charger online (since they didn't have one at the store anyway).  I'm tired of all the wring-a-marole and just want the spinning to stop!  I mean, I want all the voices to go away!  I mean, I want to get all of the hassle with the camcorder settled so I can record my daughter already!

- Over and out -