Well, drama has once again entered my life in the form of opportunity for Jim. I should not be so quick as to dismiss good fortune and maybe fate is trying to give us a nudge?

1.) Jim was given a job opportunity in North Carolina, where we had moved from a little over 1 year ago. (Feb 2005) Working with people he likes, a job he enjoys, and decent perks. None I can say I have had with any of my career positions in the past, including a cell phone and company vehicle.

2.) Only real issue is that I work in Vestal, NY. A 10 hour drive from Jim's place of employment. Needless to say, Jim departed this afternoon at approximately 2:00PM EST.

3.) Jim's really been looking forward to moving back south. I did eventually want to get out of the Greater Binghamton area due to the lack of opportunity/careers with decent pay, but our family is grounded here.

Thoughts:

-I should be thrilled he's got a job he enjoys!

-I should be pleased he's going to be sending me money for support!

-I should be happy for Jim's success!

Instead:

-I'm moping, depressed, and a bit overwhelmed.

Few Points:

-I know, with the help of family and friends, that I can handle having a 9 month old daughter and working full time.

-I am in the process of moving her sleeping arrangements from 'sleeping-with' to sleeping on her own. She's successfully slept in the Pack 'N Play for 2 nights now only getting up to eat 1x per night!

-I know it'll be difficult managing to get everything done by myself around the house, but then Olivia can learn some independence.

Eventually:

-I want to have Jim be a regular part of mine and Olivia's lives. Not just visiting at the end of every month or webcam chatting at night.

-I hope my eye issues can get resolved so I can see naturally again without the aid of several weeks of steroids.

-I'll keep you posted on the status of the drama when/if I have the time to write.

My Mantra:

I'm positive in my abilities as a loving and nurturing mother.