It is probably best that I pressed the wrong button and the previous post was erased. It came across a little crude.

Things I enjoyed about the weekend:

• Feeling accomplished with the work I did at the house
• I did get some help in clearing it
• He had a friend do the lawn work
• No fighting/arguing, although  I did cry a little
• Time spent out with friends I hardly see, although a few could not show...

Things that could have been better

• He could have spent more time with the girls (they were busy playing-I get that, but instead of shoe shopping Sat, push it to Sun after Terra left so quality time could have been spent. Also volunteering to take the girls Sat overnight since he didn't come out)

Things for me to consider in the future

• I want a partner who respects me, does not lie or cheat, and is committed to our relationship
• My children should not worry about seeing their father on drugs
• I want someone to spend some time with me, to make me feel appreciated as well
• The relationship should be mutually beneficial
• I want someone to love me equally, and feel like they can't live without me

I know I'm messed up because despite it all, the FB breakup, etc... I still had him in mind. Jim, you ruined me.