Wow, that call... that text, totally through me for a loop. 

Heart don't fail me now. 

Talked with Maya, of course. That was the first long distance call I made from the home number since I got here! Hahah, Was definitely worth the effort. Went to BJs to get food, waiting for Liv to get home, do homework, then gotta run to Burlington. Have to do some clothes shopping. I need Khaki's and red dress shirts (not sheer or t-shirts). Excited to have a new job!

How am I doing? That was not a question I had expected. And not one I gave a real answer to either. I hadn't expected... Should I be concerned? How are you dong?

I am still healing from the pain. I am in a good place right now. Am I ready? I haven't spoken to you like that in.... Are we friends? I can't figure out what we are anymore.

I can't set myself up for failure. I don't want to fail. What are your intentions?

*sigh* Logic, don't fail me now. I have a road ahead of me. I have just overcome a hurdle and I see a few paths in front of me. I will not check list the pros and cons because I honestly cannot fathom what each path has in store. I can hope I choose the right path. Does the right path choose me?

Something was off with me last night. Feeling the energy rise and fall, I accept that which the Goddess has given and that which the God has taken away. 

I have let a part of me die. Accepted and moved on. Sometimes in the death a new organism can grow, but is that a seed of bitterness or a seed of understanding?