Was at Wallie-World this AM (aka Wal-Mart) with  Livvy who is whispering to me, then kicking her head back in a loud laughter. I love her silliness. I look at her and wish sometimes I could be so care free. A temper tantrum at dinner because she's tired and would rather stand outside than sit at the booth. How easy life must be for her, and yet so terrible not having a real choice.

And yet with choices, I feel trapped. Starting Monday I have to "Drive Miss Daisy"... need to start getting up early to get ready for work, pick her and her kids up to drop them at daycare, then go into work... then pick her kids up and drop her off.  I lent her my truck for 2wks before it was sold. Drove her to work and home for a week, then she went into training at a different shift. A different friend has been accommodating her needs lately, but I understand just how frustrating it can be. I guess it must be frustrating on Miss Daisy's part as well, since she's so reliant on other people... but I have enough crap to worry about.  I guess it wouldn't bother me if I slept better, or hell, felt rested and wasn't have complications. But I can't say no because a friend can't leave a friend stranded without doing everything in their power first to be of help.

I told her about my last appointment with Kassis, and with my FML appt day on Wednesday where she will have to get her own ride home... which I will have to remind her about again on Monday, Tuesday, + Wednesday morning... and that's all pending I am granted the okay to return to work after Wednesday afternoon's appt.  I can't leave her stranded when she's got a 5 year old boy with a chronic health condition... but I need to take care of me and this pregnancy. I am working when I shouldn't be, and probably for not much longer since the last ultrasound results. She should be getting her van back soon... I hope, because I don't know how long I can take being chauffer.

I am trying to get things straight with my mortgage consultant, who is not answering my calls either. After the hub-bub about possible bankrupcy with Countrywide, I've been nervous. Then with the changes and the Dow going up again, I was thinking I was in the clear. Not to mention the relator was 3 days late faxing the information... there goes my deadline. I feel like I'm losing a critical battle.

Today my Grandma turned 79. We took her to Texas Roadhouse. She ate good. I'm glad. And she got to see Olivia. I'm pricing food for the Big Party Sept 1st. Olivia's 2nd b-day party and finally sent invitations out, but I have directions attached leading to Hooper Road, but I forgot that the end of Hooper I directed people to is under construction! I hope people don't get lost. Ugh. Leave it to me. I work so hard to plan, and it's inevitable something happens. Lets be knocking on whatever nearby wood there is that nothing else goes wrong.

She has her 2 year well baby on Tuesday. She's behind in her speech. We'll see how it goes. I'm sorry I can't be there. Jim has to bring her.

I still need a baby name. I get so many suggestions... but nothing is stricking. Jim needs a list. Where the hell is his list? He's suppose to give me a list of girl names he likes, and nothing yet. Get on it boy. *laughs*

I'll leave it at that.