Few moments to post. First day at VZ. Interesado. Like the first day of any job, i really have no opinion yet, besides I was a little disturbed about the benefits package. Was told would have to pay for benefits for 90 days then 100% paid for thereafter, just found out no benefits for 6mo! Guess Nanci had told me from the old contract.

Trying to get back in the groove. Head spinning, but I think I'm getting sick. Liv's been feverish and puking, still not 100% and I'm tired. Exhausted.

She was over last night/afternoon and feel asleep on the couch. Jim washed and dried her clothes. I woke her up at 11:30 to fold her clothes and go home. I wasn't nice about it. I was livid. Ridiculous. I'm not her maid. I'm still irritated with the prior situation and she comes to my house to sleep. She comes to have Jim do her laundry. 'F' that.

I'd like to see her bring up the idea on Wednesday again and I'll give her a piece of my mind when my children aren't present. I waited till Liv was sleeping before I woke her up and had Kara in her crib last night. I need space.

I don't know how many times I have to tell her this. Obviously she's not understanding that I need time right now. I need to sort through my feelings with my homelife. I need to sort through myself before I can continue with anything.

Jim said he loved me. I told him I was working on it.

I'm working on it and I've felt a bit disappointed in myself lately. Just tired from Liv wearing me down. Gotta run. She's crying for me. Poor cha-chi.