Living Life Bravely

Up until 2 months ago, my life was perfect. Everything was so well planned and the future was bright and perfect. I was in medical school, my boyfriend was perfect. My family was wonderful. Every detail about my future was planned out. Then, one day he confessed that he cheated on me. And from then on, everything went down the drain.Since that day, 2 months ago, everything has been confusion for me. I am so messed up. Life suddenly seems so complicated and i keep thinking wouldn't it be easier if it just ended now? There was nothing to live for. And the future is so damn scary i want to run back to the past.

The future IS scary especially when you dont have a plan. Instability is terrible for someone who thrives on stability. And i've never experienced it before. At the age of 24, suddenly i'm thrown into a new life. Adulthood. Before this, there was only one guy. Only 1 boyfriend since i was 18 years old and this same guy has buffered me from teen to adulthood so that i did not grow up.

Now, its a new phase. New life. I still do not know what to do with my life. What do i do with him? What do i do with me? The future is still dark and unpredictable. But i must be strong. Maybe with this journal and with help from total strangers, i can find myself and be myself.

For now, since the future is so unpredictable and scary, i choose to only live in the present. Day by day, step by step, i will try to live life bravely.

"If you have run with the footmen, and they have wearied you, then how can you contend with horses?" - Jeremiah 12:5

12:36 PM - July 26, 2006 - post comment

i know how u feel girl

i know how u feel ive been through the same thing where everthings just as u like it and then next thing u know its all shattered at ur feet but just rember this even though the future is very scary and hard to accept just rember that when times get hard as long as there are people who love u (such as family members) and friends that care about u u'll make it and day by day u heal and things will get better mabey not right away but eventuly they will u just got to be strong and as long as u can do that u can just about do anything :)
Happy

HappyYetBrokenGirl - 12:52 PM - July 26, 2006

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Life

I know the feeling, I have had exerprinces with bad relationships, and I thought I had found the person I was meant to be with but it fell apart, but you cannot let that alter all of your future plans. It sucks but it is not the end of the world, you need to just keep going to school and striving for what your goals are. You still have your family and friends. One guy isn't worth all that espsically not a scum bag. I have found someone new and wonderful and you will too.

SilverWind - 1:16 PM - July 26, 2006

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