buzy weekend, happy heart

i've had a great weekend the exam that day went great! i never thought i would be 4th highest in my class! i seriously expected to fail. i think the examiner was too lenient. anyway, thank God i didn't fail but i'm not gonna let the high grade lull me into a false sense of security. i still have a long way to go and i'm raring to go! it's a new posting now. i'm currently in general medicine which is thought to be the toughest coz there's so so so much to learn! the field is unlimited! went to St Anne's Feast Day in the weekend and also had a family holiday. btw i'm catholic. messed up but trying to be a good catholic 

oh and btw bout that guy... i decided to give him half a chance. i agreed to help him change and try to work things out...but only 1-2 days after we agreed on that, he went from extra caring and worried bout my wellbeing to ME ME ME. everything was about him.  he only msg me once a day b4 he sleeps and every msg was about how bad he feels, how depressed he is, how worried he is about his future. so i decided enough of 'self-sacrificing'. he loves himself too much. i guess that was the root of the problem. he loves himself too much to deny himself anything including sex if he wants to. so i just gave up. i'm tired. i hope i didn't make the wrong decision. but i just feel so tired of supporting him. maybe he does love me, but i come a poor second to himself.

btw, if any guy reads this, he msg that when he was having sex with her, deeply buried in his mind was that he wanted a child of his own. he didn't care who mothered the child as long as he got HIS child. he just realized that. it sounds very weird to me. any comments? do guys really think this way or is he bullshitting? i replied that it was plain lust. he said it was lust but also because he wanted a child.sigh... he doesn't even think of my feelings. he just wants to get things of his mind. imagine a guy telling his gf that after he cheats on her.

anyway... new posting, new beginning, new life!

New Beginnings

It's only the beginning now ...a pathway yet unknown At times the sound of other steps ...sometimes we walk alone The best beginnings of our lives May sometimes end in sorrow But even on our darkest days The sun will shine tomorrow. So we must do our very best Whatever life may bring And look beyond the winter chill To smell the breath of spring. Into each life will always come A time to start anew A new beginning for each heart As fresh as morning dew. Although the cares of life are great And hands are bowed so low The storms of life will leave behind The wonder of a rainbow. The years will never take away Our chance to start anew It's only the beginning now So dreams can still come true. ....by Gertrude B. McClain

11:04 AM - August 1, 2006 - post comment

Congrats

Well congratulations on passing your exam and getting rid of that looser, you cannot judge all guys based on him, but he was just dumb ass looser, from what I have read I would say you did the right thing.

There are plenty of decent people out there even if it make take a while to find them sometimes, they are there. You don't need to put up with that nonsense, no one does.

SilverWind - 12:43 PM - August 1, 2006

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