So it's 11.20pm and it'll soon be my birthday - can't believe in 40 minutes i'll 34 years old!! Ye gads!!

And am i spending the last minutes of being 33 in a good mood? No, i'm not! Same old story! Just got a receipt from itunes informing me that yet another £14 worth of music has been downloaded that A. informed me were free tracks and aren't. Again! This not the first time this has happened but it's bloody well the last. I informed him that if the tracks were indeed free then there was a problem with itunes and until he sorted it out, that was it, no more downloading. Now, in my eyes, that's a perfectly reasonable thing to say. I mean, who wants to keep paying for things that were 'free' or 'accidentally downloaded'? Not me! How did A take this? The usual way, went off in a huff, got narky and is now sulking. It's occurred to me over the last few months and especially the last few weeks that the age gap between us is becoming more and more apparent. It might only be 7 years but it feels like 17, i'm living with a petulant teenager who wants everything his own way and who sulks when it doesn't happen.

And don't even get me started on money! I'm finally sorted in that direction. My debts from my disastrous marriage are paid, unless the idiot has done things i don't know about, and i even finally have savings! Not much granted but it's a start! But A can't even make his monthly salary last past the first 3 days and who is it he comes to begging to borrow cash? Yep, you guessed it! Me! And if i say no, the sulking thing starts - or carries on! I just don't know what to do, i feel like i'm stuck between a rock and a hard place.

Please Goddess, let my birthday be pleasant!