Didn't get a chance to blog yesterday, let alone do anything else 'cause A was at home. Every 5 minutes he was peering over my shoulder and asking what i was doing! What the bloody hell did it look like i was doing? I gave up on the puter by mid-afternoon and read for the rest of the day/night. I finished off 24 Hours by Greg Iles, it was good but not as good as Mortal Fear. I think if i'd read 24 first, i would not have bothered with MF. Still, i'm impressed enought to look for more of his next time i go to the library *grin*

A was off today as well  - it's meant to be his payday but surprise surprise, he didn't get paid! This is becoming a habit with him - simce starting work at V he's either not been paid at all, paid late or not paid something but not the right amount. It's got to the point where i'm not sure whether to believe him or not, which is really sad because it doesn't say much about the state of our relationship. He still owes me £400, somehow i get the feeling i won't be seeing it any time soon.

The only reason i'm blogging now is because he's asleep, having drunk too much as usual. He's in a foul mood too, i think it's to do with the fact that he tried to talk me out of going to my rheumatology clinic appointment this afternoon and i refused.  He still doesn't comprehend - after nearly 6 years - that i have a chronic illness and i need to go to these appointments.

I'm glad i went today anyway, i saw a different doc to the one i normally see and he seems to be a lot more on the ball than Doc G. He agrees with me that the Leflunomide isn't working and it's time for me to try one of the biologicals. I've got 3 options, Enbrel and Humira which are self-injectable and Remicade which is an IV infusion once every 2 months. The thought of sticking needles in myself is just too scary to even consider so i'm thinking of going with Remicade - will do some research and try and make a decision before i have to go back in 6 weeks.

Am feeling a bit down tonight so i'm off to read - The Autumn Castle by Kim Wilkins - and try and forget about the real world for a while! See you soon guys!