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Wednesday, March 19, 2008 - Guys alike

I'm furious.

Extremely furious. Sure, we aren't together or anything, but we have that special friendship - the kind of relationship many people won't understand. But he is the one i turn to ask my many silly questions but he has always listened to them, and sometimes even when he doesn't have the answer to it, he still manage to make me feel like my quesion isn't dumb at all and make me understand things better. He somehow made me see things in a different persepective.

And he is the one guy who has always treated me like a woman. Someone who didn't take me as another immature 21 years old bimbo. He always made me feel grown up and important (i know that sounds totally insane) but he just have that kind of effect on me. And sometimes i wish if given the chance to change the time and place, we'd probably end up being a very happy couple. At least that's what he has told me before anyways. I know there's no way in this world we'd be together but i love being with him because he makes me feel complete.

So when he was acting all funny and weird yesterday, i got a little worried. We were texting each other and here's basically how our conversation went.

Him: I'm tired Mich...of living... Goodnight.

Me: HUH? Are you okay?

Him: Ok tq...Pls pls take good care of youself...tks for all your care.

Me: What's wrong? Something happened? Anything i can do? You are making me worry

Him: Tq Mich..I'm trying to sleep but kinda hard. Pls don't worry. Am not good, but am ok.

Me: How can i not worry?

Him: Nothing for you to worried about. I don't plan to die...yet...Not now anyways. Pls take good care

That's when i called him. And that's when he didn't answer my calls. Then he texted me "Take care pls Mich...whatever you do, wherever you are...goodnight." I was so worried about him but thought that maybe he was just tired and had a bad day. So the next day, (today) he didn't even text me or call me the whole day (he will always text me in the morning and in the evening and before he goes to sleep)

Was so concerned, i texted him and asked how he was feeling.

AND YOU KNOW WHAT HE REPLIED!!!?????

"Am ok. At &%@^ (A bar's name), drunk. U ok?"

Almost immediately i felt like screaming.
You don't go around one day telling people you're tired of life and making people assume you're gonna do something stupid but yet not telling them anything and not even bothering to call or even at least a message to tell them that you're ok and safe and then tell them the next day that you're out at some stupid bar drinking and getting drunk!!

That's just not right!!!! I was so frustrated and so irritated and so pissed that i was so blardy sarcastic when replying him. But that PIG DIDN'T EVEN REALIZED!!! And that made me so much more frustrated and irritated and pissed that i was about to blow up if i weren't in the office with a stack of files in front of me, just waiting for me to work on them.

And then when he finally realized i was pissed, he started apologising and when i asked him why was he apologising, he had the CHEEK TO IGNORE MY QUESTION!!

And just like that, for the first time since i've got to know him, i had no mood whatsoever to talk to him or even read his messages.

FRUSTRATING!!!