be careful of what you think of...

Posted on 2/11/2006 at 7:18 PM by Dreamer Gurl - 1 Comments - Post Comment - Link

I know, I know, it's a saturday... why am i writing journal entries on a saturday? and i bet you answered your own question with "oh it's probably another dream, or she has to talk about her 'love life'" well, it's sort of like tht. let me explain:

my mom came home from work with my bday cake (and hopefully myra, i can save you a piece, if i can hide it from april!) and she asked me what i wanted for the party. i said pizza and we were on our way to Pathmark to get the pizzas and to stock up on the food for the blizzard.

i had to mail my magazine subscription, and i did, and we were own our way to the train station to buy our car fare. we were near omar's house, and i was looking at it to see if he was home. next thing i knew, the gate flew open. and i was just hoping and praying that it was his neighbor coming out. then i saw a lady come out. i was like phew! but what do you know, he comes out right behind her. and to my luck, it  wasn't his brother, nor his sister. it just had to be him. he had on this white hat that made him look like a marshmellow lol. i was just whispering to myself "you've gots to be kidding me" he just walked down the stairs very slowly looking at me and probably thinking "what is she doing here?" then he and his mom i guess went inside the cab where he just sat there waiting for me to make my move. the only thing i could think of was "take our your cell and call myra to make yourself busy". so i did. he was still sitting there as his "mom" asked the cab driver to take them to their designation. so as i was talking, i just gave a little wave, and he gave me a "head's up".

and five minutes later, while we were waiting for the bus, there was a car accident. it wasn't big, but the rear end of a car was damaged. and while all of this was happening, i was still thinking "lord, i thought i asked you to let omar be the last person i see!" lol!!!!!

well once we got to pathmark, it was reallllllllly crowded there, so we ran back home with just a little bit of stuff. well, i'm going to go now before my mind goes completely balistic! peace.

Wow longtime no see...

Posted on 2/10/2006 at 9:28 PM by WolfGirl - 2 Comments - Post Comment - Link

Well hello peoples, I have not been on in a WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAYYYYYYYYYY

long time,like back when the dinosaurs roamed earth,lolbut my life has changed, friends died, dog died, not my darling pugsy....I broke up with my BF.And well I am just living my like as a normal 13 year-old Newyork girl from brooklyn should...I hate love triangles...and well me and my friends started this group"Desperate Schoolwives,it's a funny story actually, we all got out BF's at the same time.!!!Crazy I know, but yeah life is life and I love to live it, and well I have a poem for ya'll

Roses are red

violets are blue

sugar is sweet,a

nd my blog is black and blue

LOL^^

But violets are really purple and indigo...or purple mountains MAjesty. So Anyways since I am back The Zodiac findings ARE OPEN ONCE AGAIN!!! so just ask me for info on YOUR sign and I will  get back ASAP!!!!

Later gator ^_~

i'm back...... again!

Posted on 2/10/2006 at 5:13 PM by Dreamer Gurl - 1 Comments - Post Comment - Link

Hey guys i miss this place soooooooo much! The reason why i couldn't come on here was becuase i was on punishment again! well, i'm going to try my best to try and remember everything.

Monday- i was walking in the hallways minding my own business. but then myra's stuoid self pushed me into omar. so then later on, i pushed her into him. it wasn't a good experience for him, but it didn't feel nice to be in his arms lol

Tuesday- because of the extended day for very slow students, my afterschool didn't start til 3:27pm. so until then, me and shakalya and myra went walking around when we ran into a fight that was between two girls.

wednesday- i dont think anything happened this day. i'm trying to remember, but i can't sorry.

thursday- gabrielle and her stupid self went and told omar that she THINKS that i like him and that he should ask me out. and after that, he's been scaring me like crazy. and kept looking at me, more than usual at least. and at lunch, i thought that he had left, but he actually didn't. he had came near my table, looking for me. and when he saw that i wasn't near the table, he looked towards the lunch line. then i started to dodge him, at which he started to laugh at me and then he he just shrugged his shoulders and went on his way. i tell u, i am sooo funny lol.

now today- umm well let's see. today we got the results for the specialized high schools, and unfortuneatly, i didn't get in, but i missed by like 5 questions, which is ironic cause there was like 5 questions tht i didn't understand. well on the plus side, i got the highest score in my entire school which was a 477!!!  but still, it's pretty sad now. but let me get to the craziness of my day. ok, at gym, i lost one of my earrings. and i didn't relize it til i got into math class. but lucily i did find it. and then afterschool, i was just acting really stupid. i saw omar coming, so i wanted to slow down for him so i was moving "slow motion" and then i felt stupid that he passed me, so then i started to walk in "fast motion" lol! then once we got outside, david came up to me and was like tht out old classmate tiffany was wondering why he didn't get left back like she did. but then stupid omar came up to him and started talking about latisha. but then myra was calling him a f***ing pussy, but he just ignored it. but she kept saying it, and then he was like "i admit it, i said that your f***ing ugly" tht was not right for him to say, but still she didn't have the right to say tht to him either. well, he kept looking back at me to see if i was talking about him, but i seriously have no time for him.

well thats all i gots to say peace. o and yeh i hope tht everyone has a better valentine's day than mine, cause mine is going to suck.

nice friday...

Posted on 2/3/2006 at 5:20 PM by Dreamer Gurl - 0 Comments - Post Comment - Link

i'm ova at my friends house writing my blogs right now. i had like one of the best days of my life. now i am sre that he likes me now. i had to sacrifice gym to help my HR teach get her bulletin board up. and tht same period, omar's class was with her. i was soooo nervous, it was like i couldn't really do anything. and there was a time tht i had to go inside the classroom and get sumthing. and then as soon as i walked inside, the class was all like "hey chynna" and stuff and he gave me like the weirdest look of all. and after tht i didn't want to go inside the classroom anymore, cause i didnt know wht his next approach was going to be.

the next time i saw him was at lunch. there was problems behind and me and then i turned around to see wht was happening, and then i saw omar there looking at me. i just slowly turned around cause he was really freaking me out. then when it came time to go on the line, omar was bothering this girl, and i was like don't mess w/ her, but then he was like "it wasn't me, i can't reach tht far..." and he kept looking at me to see if i was going to do sumthing about it, but i was like nah...

then it was last period we wanted to help our teach out again, which by coincident his class was there again... so we were waiting in the back of the class room waiting for ms. O to correct the papers. and then there were times at which he would turn to look at me, but i pretened not to see him. and then he got madd jolly that he was in Ms. Nurse class for afterschool. and he got a promotion in doubt letter. i swear he has issues. well i'm going to go now becuz my friends pc keeps disconnecting. so bye!!!!

*Sigh*

Posted on 2/2/2006 at 6:40 PM by Dreamer Gurl - 1 Comments - Post Comment - Link

I bet once you saw the title, you thought something bad happened to me today. well something good actually happened today. but i think that it was a lie, although, i really don't think hat it was a lie because why would he say him out of all people? but before i get to tht, i would like to let you knw that today was crazy. there was fight, after fight, after fight in the cafeteria. and also my SS teacher is being mean. she gave me lunch and gym detention which i think is really unfair because i did my work, and i didn't talk, all i did was laugh at juan for getting the detetion. but now i'm going to ignore her, so that should make things much much better for me :)

ok, back to the happy part. today, my good ol' friend from kindergarten came up to me afterschool and was like "you know i love yo right?" and i was like i love you too, but then he said "you know who else loves you?" and I was like who? and then he said "omar, that guy right there w/ the cap on" i swear, i was speechless, i couldn't really say anything, all i could do was say ok?? and then walk away. but once i got outside tht building, i was running w/ joy and just screaming and stuff. but i really don't know wht to do next. myra says to ask him out, but i really don't ever have those good moments. i ususally have one or two, but they come unexpectingly. i just wish that i had powers like Raven, but, i guess that would take the fun out of people's lives, wouldn't it? lol. well i'm going to go now, so i'll see ya tomorrow, peace.

Hello!!

Posted on 2/1/2006 at 8:32 PM by Dreamer Gurl - 0 Comments - Post Comment - Link

hey guys. today was a day where it wasn't like exciting, but it wasn't boring either. O yeh and thanks arny for that comment, that did sort of make me feel some what better, just besides the part that you said i had issues, cause i can actually see that already. well i'm going to go see American Idol now so peace.

hey guys!

Posted on 1/31/2006 at 6:07 PM by Dreamer Gurl - 2 Comments - Post Comment - Link

Hey you guys! I would like to say that I am feeling alittle better now. I'm not saying that he actually DID something, but I dunno, I just be in my moodswings sometimes lol. but thanks fightingfemale for commenting. i don't have anyone i can really talk to besides my friend from kindergarten, but he hardly comes to school so i guess that spy plan is over. lol

but i guesss that I shouldn't worry, i mean he doesn't really tease me heavily, it's just that he keeps giving me these freaky looks. well, i can't really blog now because i have two research papers that are due tomorrow so see ya!                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                           

I really need help...

Posted on 1/30/2006 at 6:27 PM by Dreamer Gurl - 1 Comments - Post Comment - Link

Umm ok, I now see that its not "him" who is too shy. It is me. I am the one pushing myself from him. I had the perfect oppurtunity to talk to him. THE PERFECT OPPURTUNITY!!!! But no, I automatically got away somehow. Heres what happened:

It was third period and his class was coming out of science. I had science next, and when I walked inside the classroom, he was still there. So I started to talk to Ms. Nurse, and tried to buy me time until he left. He sat right in Sara's desk, which is the desk next to mine. So, you know can see why I didn't seat there.

What I've could have done was sit there and say whts up or just sit there with my notebook out. But I see I am not capable of doing that. That is why I feel hurt inside. I always push him away. And I can't make fun of him, cause that just makes him upset. And I really do feel like giving up, but something just won't let me. I just wish, I really do wish that there was something that I could do to go back in time and don't meet him at all. In fact, I wish that I didn't even attend Newton, that way, he couldn't have met me. But i guess that I just have to face the fact of knowing that we will never be together.

well, off that subject now, let me tell you what happened in school today. It was last period and we were going to our next class from lunch. Bernard had tried to pick a fight with Angelo (omar's bro) and well, Bernard didn't want to(good boy!). But, Angelo came inside the classroom and started to punch him and stuff. So then Jissette and Aseena told Bernard that he should stick up for himself. but, bernard still didn't want to. Then Ms. Tarter came and kicked bernard outside the classroom w/ angelo!! that was the meanest thing she could ever do. I actually felt pity for him.

ok, back to me. My heart is really hurt. But it's not like I can just stop liking him unless he does sumthing disgusting or uncool, then that would stop me. But he would least likely do that. I guess I could also stop if he was just ugly, but I guess that will never happen. unless he got caught in a fire or somthing (GOD FORBID!!!!). But I would love it if you readers would just wish the best for me. Ok peace out.

My dream

Posted on 1/29/2006 at 9:40 AM by Dreamer Gurl - 0 Comments - Post Comment - Link

I wanted to hurry up and write this dream down before i forget it, it seems to mean something:

ok, I was at a police department, where i was looking through the book to see who've they arrested. i found out that Arthur B and Omar were arrested, so i sneaked them out the back with the help of a few other police officers. we were on top of a roof, and then we were in kings plaza. Afterwards, we were in fornt of our school waiting for a bus to come and pick us up to go on the trip. Tanika and the entire eighth grade was there. Omar's hair has grown back.

I have no idea what this dream is trying to tell me, but I just have a feeling that I am going to need it later on. See ya later!

Nothing really

Posted on 1/27/2006 at 6:05 PM by Dreamer Gurl - 0 Comments - Post Comment - Link

Nothing really happened today. I mean, things did happen, but it wasn't something that i would come on here and scream about. but now my life is getting too boring :| I just wish that something out of the blue exciting would happen. And my SHSAT results come in two weeks, and i am feeling very nervous. I doubt that I am going to get into any of the schools. It would be great if I did, but yet again, if I do, I would most likely be alone w/ someone that i don't communicate with, or i'll just be alone period.

Ok now, I really need to get things straight with Omar. Myra says that I should just forget about him, and once he sees that, then he would be crawling to me. But I really don't think that that plan would work, since he would think that I am not interested. His bro was giving me this weird look, and if him and Omar are "keeping" something from me, then I guess that I better watch out. i bet he thinks that Myra likes him, since yesterday I was like Myra therwe goes ur BF, and she actually said hi to him afterwards. But if i were to say hi, he would be all jolly and stuff. O and did I tell you that once lunch first started, i was in the sit facing the front of the cafeteria, which is where he usually sat. But he didn't even sit there. He sat like at his table. Coincidence, I don't think so. He was even talking to his bro, which when I see them together, it kinda creeps me out. i be having the feeling that before they go to bed, they talk about me.

I just had a thought, what if his bro liked me first, and then he just wanted me to make his bro jealous? but then later on, he really did started to develop feelings for me too??? that would be so sad, but that is kinda how i felt too. I just saw him as a good looking guy. but once i finally talked to him, well i dunno, my brain and other parts just went balistic!!!! Now, I would feel so sad if he really didn't like me, o well, i guess thats how life is.

well i don't to bore you guys anymore, but there is one last thing i have to say... my school is going to be dismissed at 2:50 starting Feb. 6!! I'm soooo happy, that means that I can have an extra ten minutes to myself. Well i'm going to go and find another way to entertain myself, so tata!

Round 4(and hopefully the last)...

Posted on 1/26/2006 at 6:46 PM by Dreamer Gurl - 0 Comments - Post Comment - Link

Ok, things are getting too confusing for me, so i'm just going to leave it alone. i just can't keep up with him. Today was sooo boring, i just wanted to sleep. I wish that things can get worst, so worst that he would just leave, then things will put the cherry on top. well i'm going to go do my homework now, so peace

o and by the way, if you think that i am really not going to give up, trust me... I am. no more looking for him, and no more talking about him, i'm just going to live my life... seriously.

Round 3...

Posted on 1/25/2006 at 5:15 PM by Dreamer Gurl - 0 Comments - Post Comment - Link

I am really ready to give up  now. He is the most confusing person I've ever liked. Yesterday, he was just talking to me, but today he's not. He even hit Myra w/ his gym clothes, right in front of me!! i mean, I think that he is making me jealous. When will this "phase" wear off??? I mean, there is still 4 more months left of school *sigh*. I want o surrender, but I just can't, so i will mond my own beezwax tomorrow, Peaaaaceee

Round 2...

Posted on 1/24/2006 at 6:53 PM by Dreamer Gurl - 2 Comments - Post Comment - Link

OMG! Today was soooo crazy. i think that I am in BIG trouble. With who? Omar, of course. Let me tell you wht happened today:

Ok, it was lunch time and me and myra decided to get on the lunch line. And somehow, myra 

 skipped the entire lunch line, so it was just me, David, and Omar. Next thing I know, I hear Omar talking about me to David. Here is how the convo went(well, as well as i can rememebr it lol)

O: You hit that yet?

D: No, did you?

O: I tired 3 times!!!(note that he didn't even attempt not once before, tht liar)

me: hello!!! i'm right here listening!!!!

O: we weren't talking about you, we were talking about Chinatown!( both laugh)

O: Angelo,(his older bro)  Chynna said whats good.

AHHHHHHH!!!!! I mean come on!!! He is really getting me scared now. So scared, I just had to hit him( and i actually did):

It was last period, straight after lunch and Gabrielle was calling him tomato head. Then he walked inside of the classroom and pulled her hair. And i'm happy of what she did back, she punched him! And he actually punched her back!! And he was all like "i don't hit girls..." to myra, please! So then i was like " don't mess w/ her!" and then i punched him!!! i was just waiting for him to do something back, but it was taking too long, so i just apologized and ran away laughing!!!!!

I seriously don't know what to do. Well, I guess I should keep doing what i am doing now and don't change a thing. peace

Today was crazy...

Posted on 1/23/2006 at 3:41 PM by Dreamer Gurl - 0 Comments - Post Comment - Link

I woke up with such a nervous feeling. I got to school like 5 min late, and I had to stand outside w/ myra and the rest of my friends. Then myra came and told me that omar was right there in front of the school. then i began to feel nervous again. I was just acting like i didn't see him, but I couldn't help but look at him. then i caught him smiling at me, i guess that he saw me looking at him, so he just wanted me to feel "nicer".

Then at lunch, i saw omar and eric coming my way. i was getting soooo scared man, i didn't even know wht to do. but then myra decided to go to see out friends shakayla, and elizabeth. and wht a coincidence, omar was right at that table. but i didn't want to go and make a fool at myself. but like 5 min later, i was like "wht the heck that can happen?" so me and sara left to go with myra. then when i sat down, i saw him in the corner of my eye just looking at me with this weird look. i was just sitting there madd scared. then later on, i went to get my lunch. i could of sworn tht he was on his way to get on the lunch line but he didn't. i was soo sad. and then when i went to the snack table w/ myra, and when he was about to sit down and eat, he ran farrrrr away. and then he said sumthing to eric, thts just how i knw tht he was talking about me.

i just hope tht he doesn't have anything against me because well, i am desperately tyring to get him, and i am going to try again tomorrow. so peace out guys.

Starting from scratch...

Posted on 1/21/2006 at 10:07 PM by Dreamer Gurl - 0 Comments - Post Comment - Link

Sorry that I couldn't write yesterday. I was on "punishment" but yesterday made me think alot, and I mean alot! well, my school went on a trip to NY Hall of Science and so did, Teacher's Prep. I saw all of my former classmates, such as Fabius, Amanda, Naeem, and not to mention Christian. And he was the only one who didn't say hi. I mean i was like "eww, chistian.." and he didn't even say anything back. all he did was look, roll his eyes, then went on his way. He has changed alot though. He grew to about 5' 10" and slicked his hair down. but his face is like a horror movie! his eyes are droopy and his pours aren't so great either. And to find out, he and fabius both have girlfriends. I mean I wish Omar was there so I can show him off. and speaking of him, he didn't even come on the trip. He was all i could think about too. I got to find a way to get him to show him that I'm interested. ut there is always a failure in anyplan. i'm going to try again monday, and hopefully, if i try hard enough, it will work. well now i'm going to go to sleep so good night all.

I'm in loads of trouble.

Posted on 1/19/2006 at 6:40 PM by Dreamer Gurl - 0 Comments - Post Comment - Link

Today I had afterschool, and only 8 children came. The day went by pretty fast, but i am in a whole bunch of trouble. let me tell u. omar today was in Ms. jones room when me and gabrielle were looking for him to call tomato head. i was just like to her forget it because he's was in a   "protective distance". but then latisha, myra, and gabrielle were all in the glass just looking at him. and they were there laughing at him, in his face!!! then later afterschool, i was waiting outside w/ gabrielle when he came again to go to beacon. and she was calling him carrot head and tomato head and stuff, and now he's not talking to me i think. man its not fair. i didn't even do anything. its my crazy friends. well now i knw to listen to my heart and not laugh at him. well i'm going to go now, so peace.

I am speechless.

Posted on 1/18/2006 at 6:19 PM by Dreamer Gurl - 0 Comments - Post Comment - Link

well, i cannot make fun of omar anymore, well because he shut me down. he cut off his remaining hair and is now conceided. i caught him looking in the car mirror. that little bumb, and he even suggested tht my long friend david sleep w/ me. well i dunno wht to do, so i'm just going to leave it as that because  i am soo happy, that he actually noticed me, that loser its like almost 2 months later. but anywayz i have to go so peace out.

new nickname, radar!!!!

Posted on 1/17/2006 at 7:40 PM by Dreamer Gurl - 0 Comments - Post Comment - Link

before i start, hello everybody. how was your day? i had to take a state exam today, and the next part is tomorrow. ok. but now anyway, i gave omar a new nickname and here is why:

ok, after the test, the entire eighth grade had to go to the gym. and the didvider was closed so, it was only partially open. so, i was on side of the gym, and omar on the other. i was watching him play basketball, when all of a sudden he turns around. i told myra, but she didn't believe me. so then i told her to stand there. nothing happened. but when i was there, he would just happen to turn around again!!!

well thts all tht really happened today. so i'll speak to ya guys tomorrow, peace

No School!!!

Posted on 1/16/2006 at 1:24 PM by Dreamer Gurl - 0 Comments - Post Comment - Link

Today is Dr. Martin Luther King Jr. day and all schools, banks, P.O, and other government ran businesses are closed. Its pretty cold today and I'm trying my very best to stay inside. well the reason why I came on here today was to say tht i am getting very freaked out. and it might not be anything to get freaked out by, but i just dunno.

Last night i had a dream that i was looking out the window and looking at Omar's house. I saw the lights go out and said to myself that he's outside. i did see him outside, and he was walking w/ his brother and other friends. but then they were hanging outside of my house, and i was getting worried. then they started to play in the streets. i had went into the kitchen and got something to eat. but when i came back, i saw tht his bro was lying on the ground. I ran downstairs and asked wht happened. and they told me that he had got hitten by a car. so then the next day, i  asked my friend shakayla how he was doing (in the dream she was their neighbor) and she told me that he was going to be in the hospital for a week or too. then my friend myra told me that this is a great chance for me to get omar. but i couldn't get to him because we were seperated by these fences.

the strange thing is that while i was eating breakfast, the pc video channel played "O" by Omarion, which is like my lil memory aid for omar. but that song is like so old, and the video channel usually only plays the newest songs. then when i went to lay down, and listen to my iPod, it played tht same song first! it usually only plays jesse mccartney or my chemical romance first, since i listed then as my fav artist. thts y i'm so freaked out like i don't get it. well, i'm going to find a site where i can translate my dream so peace.

Friday the THIRTEENTH!!

Posted on 1/13/2006 at 5:59 PM by Dreamer Gurl - 0 Comments - Post Comment - Link

I know alot of people don't believe in that day, and i don't either. in fact, nothing bad really happened. it was pretty cool today.

again i went to school at 7:45. that went by pretty fast. i went through the day pretty easily, but in PM homeroom was when all of the drama happened.

Dazzil (myra's crush) and his friend came up to the door and was pointing at myra saying to his friend "thts her, thts her" and she got madd happy. once we left the school, she decided to stalk him, but he was too far up, so we walked around the block. and on our way there, we saw omar in the basketball court. myra had called a loser lol and i couldn't help but laugh. and when he saw me laughing, all he did was walk away. he always does tht, when i yell at him and when i laugh at him, he seems speechless. but then i was like to her, it's funny how he responded. and she was like he know he's a loser. and i think he heard tht because then he was like "fu*k you, i'm going to f**k u up" to myra and stuff like tht.

and just not too long ago, i was on the phone w/ myra  and latisha. and guess wht! dazzil knows she likes him, and that he said sumthing good about myra, but latisha won't tell us the rest well because she's a bum. but anyway, i'm sooooooo happy man! like omg, go myra it's ya bday. ok, i have to go now, so i'll talk to ya sumtime later. peace.