The title says it all. It was one of the most memorable 3 minutes of my entire adulthood. I am exaggerating, innit? Never have I tot that I would have the opportunity in this life time to see, face to face, the man who single handedly built Malaysia from nothing to something. He was none other than our former PM, Tun M. 

I was in Pavilion walking with hubby, killing time before catching The Mummy Part 3 at 12pm when I looked over to my left and saw a man who looked so familiar. I looked and asked hubby whether he knows the man. Being the blur IT nerd as he always is, he asked me where and I said, there, on your left! We were at ground floor walking towards the escalator, when the same man approached the escalator as well. The man went up with his wife (we assume it was his wife) and 6 other men. I tot to myself, hey, he must be some big shot, I mean, which normal chap would want to walk with 6 fellas surrounding you, who were constantly looking around, like they were protecting someone from something? 

When he turned around again, we knew instantly that the man is Tun M! Without a doubt! It was amazing, our jaws dropped to the floor. Hubby pointed out my mouth was wide open, I must have looked like a moron!! We were walking at his back for 3 floors up (with 6 of his bodyguards constantly looking at hubby and me like we were capable of taking someone's life with our bare hands. If I could do that, the first person to go is my lady boss!) and finally when we came face to face, I didn't know what to do? I panicked! I mean, I never panicked! So me being panicky was a huge deal! So, tell me, what should I do? Do I smile coyly, or vainly, with or without flashing my gums and my inner wisdom teeth, or do I nod, the subtle nod or the hey man, hows life nigger type of nod (the nod that you exchange with your hip-hop brothers!) or do I wave, like the beauty contestant type of wave or the bye bye baby wave? Like what should I do?!!!! I decided what the hell, pick up my courage and smiled at him, and he smiled back and nod like the perfect gentleman at hubby! How amazing!! How amazing!!

Looking at him makes me think of dear old dad! Someone who used to be so strong and powerful, yet as time goes by, they age gracefully, they became this ordinary old man, just like your dad and mine. No doubt Tun M is still charming in his grey one-piece suit but we all must admit he has aged. Just like dad, who now walks slower, who is forgetful, who is less energetic compared to 20 years ago when he still could carry me around (when I was 10 ok?) and remembers to pick me from school every evening as he used to come earlier to see me play sports. But now, he forgets the simplest thing like where is the key, did he lock the house door when he left house today morning or what I told him 2 weeks ago (which is normal, I know).

Dad wasn't the perfect dad, but I guess no one is perfect. He has his flaws, just like Tun M. Maybe in our eyes, Tun M has no flaws, but I am sure his children would beg to differ.The 3 minutes encounter with Tun M was indeed amazing, something that I will never forget, but it was also that 3 minutes that makes me realized that dad is getting older by the days and that one day he will not be around. Past will remain as past, though dad has made plenty of mistakes in his younger days, it never changes the fact that he is still my dad, and I would love to be able to still talks to him, drives him around and makes him happy as long as I can. This is what life is all about. The new generation will always blame the previous generation for faults, so I am sure when I have kids (God's willing) they will also be like me and dad now. Blame it on the generation gap I guess. But we all do what we can, so that we wont live on with regrets! 

It was also nice to see that when Tun M was casually walking around Pavilion, no one, I repeat, no one disturbed him, you know the can I shake your hand's, or the can I have your autograph's or can I get your permission to take your picture's type of sickos, we were all indeed very civilized citizen that respect Tun M's personal time and space, which is amazing! He deserves this, growing old peacefully and gracefully, I mean after all that he has done for us and the country, he truly deserves this. 

So, there you go... the highlight of my day....

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This is the usual opening line for me and my friends, what's new? Well, I cant really think about what's new with my life lately. But I do know that it has been ages since I last updated my blog. So here I am! Whats' new.....

1) I had Ramly burger for the first time last week, after 10 months of no processed food. It tasted heavenly. I loved the beef burger with egg. Minus the sauce. The best stall is still at Dsara Uptown in front of 7-11. Talking about 7-11, do you notice that most Ramly Burger stalls is at the front of 7-e? I mean, whats the catch? Something for me to ponder upon for the next 2 days! 

2) I had to come back to work last Sun for 3 hours. Was supposed to come in to test the new system implemented but they screwed up, as usual. So, 3 hours was a kerja buta day! Knowing the fact that this new system should be up and running by 1st July, they should have us back for the testing as early as 15th June? And yet they dont even have a back up plan if the system is not up and running by then! What a shameful industry, yet they call themselves the 1st class bank! My ass is first class! Yes, I still hate my job. 

3) I went for a sandwhich dinner with Venus yday and we talked about BBQ food. I reckon BBQ food should be corn, sweet potatos, salad and wholemeal bread. Dont ask me why but I think BBQ meal is supposed to be simple. And that it should only be the 4 of us.

4) I hate going out in groups. I love the fact that it's only the 4 of us. 

5) I am officially 29! My last age that starts with 2! Shit! My bday celebration was a quiet one, nothing fanciful. Just dinner with hubby and old frens at Subang, we had Korean Food which is expensive and so the ordinary! The only thing they refill for you is the kimchi! But it was a new experience.

6) My bday cake was recommended by a gay man working in King's Cake House. It was a chocolate mousse cake with fruits on top. The cake was horrible.

7) Dad and his ex-gf is on a road trip!!! Call me if you want to know more.

8) Eric might tie the knot next year, Dec!!! I need to plan for a fantastic wedding. They wanted a church wedding, a simple lunch buffet after that and honeymoon to Bali.

9) BIL's graduation is 2 weeks from today. I am proud of him.

10) Hubby is starting work on Europe's hour, from 2pm to 11pm. I am going to miss having dinner with him :( Who wana be my dinner partner for the next one year!!???

11) I had 4 bananas the other day and Venus has highlighted to me to watch my weight because 3 bananas is equal to one bowl of rice.

12) My hair smells of sri paandii. I love the banana leaf rice. I am sucking on my thumb as we speak. The taste is still stuck on my fingers. 

13) The van that sells the economical rice in front of my office is amazingly cheap. RM2.50 for rice, 2 veges and egg. RM3 if it's with fish. 

14) McD's latest banana toffee sundae is so good. Pls go and try, for limited period of time only. 

15) I want to try Pizza Hut's latest starbite pizza. The star-shape pizza. Looks adorable, I know it taste the same but then I just love the shape. Looks like Patrick. 

16) I found a parking spot @ work, RM3.50 per entry. I am so glad. Now I dont need to go work at 7.am, I can leave home by 8am. Yeah!

17) PKR's HQ is at Merchant Square, next to my Condo. Ahem, ahem. 

18) I miss pasar malam food. 

19) I havent been praying lately, I think I have to do that soon.

20)  Life is so ordinary.......how come I feel old. I mean, ppl my age should be outgoing and having fun, have a stable career, knows what they want...

Write more later, I need to munch on snacks. 

I cannot think anymore. After a tired day of work, all I want to do is to go back, shower and sleep for hours. This is horrible! 

1) The weathers blardy hot. Whats wrong with the sun? I am always thirsty!

2) They say things that dont kill ya, makes you stronger? How strong is strong?

3) Eric, my brother is officially back into the dating game. Way to go!

4) I love nestle 0% fat yoghurt! Brilliant!

5) I love the American Boy song by Estelle.

6) I still hate my job, regardless. 

7) I miss my frens but I dont tink I am ready to meet them, sorry guys! You know who you are!

8) Kung Fu Panda is super farnee.

9) Finally Tony Leung is getting married. 

10) What to wear for work? I need to buy formal wear for my boring dull grey shit-ass work.

11) I hate my work, did I say that aledi?

12) I found a portable pau stall, its actually a van that sells pau, amazingly nice. Finally I found a pau stall that sells excellent kaya bun! And also the sweet custard bun which I can only find in Ipoh! Its located somwhere in Kota Dsara.

13) I miss mom, dad has been naughty. He has been calling all his exs. Kuang kuang kuang!

14) My baby kelisa full tank now officially costs me RM90!

15) I am craving for the mini biscuits with the color sugar frosting on top.

16) Where to get nice wet tissues? My ex-colleague is a supplier, coz she buys them for me from SG. But she's not coming back MY anymore, sob!

17) I am so lookin forward for Friday!

18) Caterpillars!

This is the continuation from the I Hate My Job blog. I had induction last week, from Mon till Wed and to my surprise it was very good, very informative and very well planned. Basically it covers about the company, about all the departments involved, about how we should all work together, about what other divisions are doing, about who is who! It was very good, surprisingly good. 

Finally I make new friends, colleagues. It was a good experience, we did presentation together, we have lunches together, we were assigned to our mentors for the next 3 months, so overall rating, it was a good week. I am already on job, though the system is complex but I am getting used to it and work has then, starting to pile up! I went back late for the first time last Friday. I am sure there'll be more late nights to come. 

So is life all about work? If you were to ask me that, my honest answer will be deff NO! But look at the society this days, without money you cant do shit! Everything is about money! Car, petrol, house, insurance, food, family, you name it, everything is about money. Sure I can quit my job and do what I like and then what? Who is going to take care of me and hubby when we were old and wrinkly, or what's going to happen if we fall ill? All the what ifs. So, not working is deff a NO! No choice, no choice! 

It's not like I like the industry overnight, I still hate work and the cold grey industry, but since I have familiarize myself with the dos and donts, I am getting better as the day goes by. I no longer have anxiety attacks thinking of Mon but still, if I were given the choice I would rather stay home and sleep. Nothing is perfect I guess. Just have to deal with it.

Deal with it!!! 

I love this song. If you happen to have time, listen to it. Amazing lyrics. I lost my mom 6 months ago. I still miss her a lot. My feelings are uncertain, at times I can be super happy, but the next minute, I cry my eyeballs out! My doctor says its perfectly normal. Its a way my body is adjusting to all the stress I am going through. Work, my health, my mom, things like that! 

I can still remember it so clearly, the day before mom went away, I was at work. My dad called and told me that mom might not be able to make it, the doctors concluded that her liver was falling apart. But everything went so fast. I packed my bag, drove back to Seremban, cried my lungs out, and off I went to the hospital. I stayed overnight to take care of mom, I can see that she was having difficulties in breathing, and that it feels like, slowly, she was taken away. When the doctors came and told me that mom needed life support, I knew it that mom will never be able to make it back home again. 

It was 4.30am, I called dad to come over as soon as he can. I was shaking, feeling so scared and so sad. I gave mom a kiss on her forehead and told her it was ok. He hands were as cold as the ice. It was as if, her spirits were no longer in her body, her body was like an empty vessel. Everything else was history after that. The impact is so great to me because I was there alone, I saw how it was. How she struggled, how she was taken away slowly. But I am glad I was there with her all the while. And that she went away peacefully, without much pain. She always wanted it to be that way, so I belief God has answered her prayers. 

So, this song by Mariah actually calms me down. I know mom is no longer here, I know that I can never pick up the phone to call her again and that I can never taste her cooking again but hey, it's not the end, it's not bye bye yet. I am sure she is now in safe hands, and that nothing worries her anymore. She is healthy, happy and having a galla time. I just need to remind myself that I will definitely see her again, meantime life goes on, and I know she wants me to be happy and move on. But it still doesnt change the fact that I miss her so.

I always tot that I can never deal with this, but hey, it has been 6 months and I am still surviving. Still OK! Sure at times I wake up at 3am and think about her, or when I see the old lady walking at the playground, I wanted it to be her but then this is how life is. The harder it gets, the tougher you will be. We all just need the strength and faith to go on. 

Well mom, till we meet again, have fun and we miss you!!!  

Finally, its 445pm!! Yeah, yeah, yeah!!! I didnt want Friday to go away. I wanted it to be Friday all the while, I was so unhappy about work that I started to have tears in my eyes just by thinking about Monday morning. So just to cheer myself up a bit, I took the long way drive back home. Normally I'll take the Eastin way home but today, I took the Penchala highway, simply because I wanted to enjoy the green views of the highway. I wanted to enjoy the Friday air and the Friday sky, I know, it's just crazy innit? The drive was just phenomenal, eventhough I had to pay 2 bucks for the short drive but hey, wat the heck!! I just wanted Friday to stay forever. 

Friday went by quickly, and I woke up by the sound of my handphone telling me its almost out of battery. I know, I know.... I forced myself up to charge my precious Sony Ericsson. It was already 10.30am. Sigh, that was fast! Saturday, please stay with me!!! 

After lunch and dropping off MIL and BIL at the bus station, off we went  to Pavilion to catch Indiana Jones, The Home of the Old Folks! Since it was still the school holiday, me and hubby decided to treat my dear SIL for a movie, which she didnt quite enjoyed it because the story was pretty draggy. The storyline was not as juicy as I expected it to be. But man, was Harrison Ford hot! He looks old but still, he is as charming as ever. Worth my RM12 tickets. Not cheap for a GSC! The shopping mall looks amazing, very zen looking, clean, plenty of mirrors, very classy, the shops are very VIP, think Aldo, CK, DKNY, Coach! Shops like that basically. I didn't have the mood to shop because I know for the fact that I cannot afford any of it, so why waste time. I might as well not look at them, just in case if something catches my eyes, you know how it is! So I proposed that we go and splurge on Baskin Robbins since it was the 31st (the 31% discount craze)! 

On the way back, SIL was making fuss as she was hungry. So, hubby took us to this small old chinese restaurant situated at Jln Imbi for the famous Chicker Hor Fun, the Ipoh mali style. They were only few of us because the place closes at 6pm, we were just in time for a quick bite. The Ayam Hor Fun was ok, nothing to brag about. The soup was not yellow enuff, the Hor Fun was all lumpy, the ayam was pathetic, the restaurant smells like chicken and the cili padi was crazily hot, it was just wrong. I wouldnt want to come back here despite all the newspaper ad promoting the goodness of it. Sorry, just not my cup of tea. After Hor Fun, off we went to hunt for BR!

We finally arrived at BR and the queue was mad! It was like BR were giving out free ice creams, the store was packed! But since we're there, hubby insisted we go down and have a look, which we always ended up buying something after the 'look' so we went in to sandwhich ourselves.We were given numbers as we queued up, we were number 346, and number 330 just went in to order. So, you can imagine how long we had to wait. Not forgetting the fella in front of us ordered a life time supply of ice creams. He spent almost a thousand bucks on it!! Anyways, after much debate on how many pints to get, we decided to take 2 pints, with 2 flavors in each, so we get to enjoy 4 flavors all together. I mean, lets not be greedy aight? So, we waited about half an hour to order, another 15mins to pay, another 15mins for them to packed, another 15mins to tell you that one of the flavors sudah habis, another 15mins to re-packed so all in all, we waited about 1 1/2 to get what we want! BR, you better be worth my time!! It was already late so we decided that BR will be our dinner, so we went home and makan!!!

Back home!!! Lets see, we ordered Royal Chocolate, Cookies & Cream, Chocolate and Praline Caramel. I forgotten the name exactly but it was something like that. SIL tried her first scoop, she didnt quite fancy it, but boy, I loved it!!! My fav is deff Praline, it was blardy good!! I have a thing for caramel, so anything goes. It was just fantastic, very rich, very creamy, very sweet and very  caramel. Slurp!!! BR, you made my day!!! 

Fast Forward!....It's Sunday morning already, I can feel anxiety attacks! What to do, what to do!!! I refuse to wake up, all curled up, covering myself under the blanket and remind myself it is still Sat morning! Sob sob!! I dont wana go to work!!! Hubby rolled me over and drag me off bed. He said that it's getting out of hand, I need to really think of what I want. I mean, its not like I didnt try but it's not easy to find another job these days, more over my work place is near where I stays, and that its a 5 days work, pays quite well, I have lotsa annual leaves, so what else? But I am just grouchy, maybe because I hated the fact I have to be at work early to get a parking spot, I hated the fact that my colleagues and the industry is so cold and grey, I hated the fact that I am new, which means I have to really prove my worth in the company and I hated the fact that the products they're offering are too complex! I just need more time to learn about it, but I am feeling as if the management wants me to fly even before I can walk. And the pressure! Tsk! I hate it!!! What is it that I want? 

After much dwelling, it's already time for lunch. Sigh, the first Sun of every month is payment day. Which means, paying all bills. Car loan, house loan, credit card bills, etc. So we went to bank (obviously) and what a dreadful reminder!! I hate my work!!! Ok, lets skip this part, because I can go on bitching forever about it.

Fast forward -> Its Sunday night and I am sweating, terrified of tomorrow. I forced myself not to think about it. So, I watched Desperate Housewives, the season finale and also The Other Girl of Boleyn, starring Natalie P and Scarlett J. What can I say? It is a brilliant movie! No joke. It is blardy good! The story, to cut it short, was all about the power of a lady over a man, amazing! And we are not talking about any ordinary man, we are talking about King Henry himself! Men's weakness -> women, money and power! 

Gasp....it's 11pm already. Sob sob!!! One more hour to go before the dreadful Monday!!!! Tak nak!!! No!!!!! ......to be continued! 

The title says it all! I cannot stand it!

You see, I have just moved on to a new career path which initially I really looked forward too, but now, I dont!!! Everything is so alien to me, the industry, the people, the jargon! I miss my ex colleagues and my previous freedom of going to work at 9am, sneaking out lunch at 11.30am, coming back at 2pm and driving home at 4.30pm. I am still adapting to the new environment and the new people. Even though it has only be 2 weeks, I dread going to work! I have been crying so much it's not funny anymore. Yes, everyone has been telling me to really think about it, whether this is what I want to do. But I dont know! To make things simple, I am going to list down reasons why I hate my new job!

1) I dont have a parking spot! This is important ok? Keep reading! This is so sad! I have to wake up at 615am everyday to get ready and tokyo drift to work to beat the other drivers for a pathetic free parking spot! It is just crazy! I normally arrived work at about 710am and I only start work at 845am! Which means I have about 1  1/2 hours to daydream about my next career as a supermodel (if you're wondering, I am 5 feet 3 and weigh as heavy as a truck hence the daydreaming). You see, I am not a cheapskate, I dont mind paying for a car park, but the basement parking has no vacant spot. I can try applying for it but I need to wait for 6 months, at least! 6 months? So what am I going to do till then? I cannot be staying in my car daydreaming everyday innit? 

2) The employees are EXPECTED to work late. Meaning you will be given plenty of tasks to finish and that you have to multi tasks in between your given job description with other ad hoc projects! And if you go back at 5.45pm sharp, they will give you the evil stare! Eerie evil stare! So you have to pretend to be busy and stay as late as you can! 

3) My new colleagues does not belief in having lunch. Majority of them will packed their lunch and eat at their humble workstation, alone! Even the zombies in Resident Evil do lunches together, agree? I mean yes they fight amongst themselves to eat human flesh but hey, they eat together! I totally do not condone to that idea! I mean, lunch means lunch. I dont care what I'm having but lunch means going out for a break with actual humans, and no, blow-up dolls are not included. These people do not share the same sentiment as I do! I wonder why?

4) The system is so blardy complicated, which explains why I need to attend training for the whole month! I have to memorise 84 screens, 7 different applications, juggle between calls and my team, manage the product that I am assigned to and also multi tasks between work. Please be reminded that this is my 2nd week, thank you!

5) The people here are ice cold. Totally un-cool, they are dead serious people! Their jokes are based on work and the system applications, like dear old Gilbert. They dont really mingle or talk. I dont know what to say!!! How can you work like that!!

6) No internet access. Do I even need to $%%**^%#@# elaborate?  

Are these reasoning good enough? Or I am just picking on excuses because I am thrown to an unfamiliar place and I am not used to working hard! Back in the good old days, I dont even work. And even that I complained about how work is so stagnant, how stupid I have become and that we are always fighting to make things work. But now thinking about it, I really miss the flexibility of my work, my great ever cursing boss, my fun loving lazy colleagues, the crazy jokes cracked by VENUS and also the unlimited internet access that was given to us, surf baby surf! Sigh, what am I supposed to do? I am feeling so confused and lost. Should I give myself 6 months to adapt? What is my time line again?

I never once imagine myself writing blogs. Reason being is because I don't write good English and I dont have a life! I mean, what can I write about anyways? Come on, who wants to read about what I think right? I personally reckon that bloggers are people who writes well, who is wildly creative, who has an interesting life! I for once dont have many friends, I have just about a handful. I am very picky when it comes to choosing frens. Thats why I have just enough to keep me sane and loved. These are the people that have seen my worst, the same people whom I grew up with. Besides that, life is as ordinary as can be with dear hubby! I am a dull person who is a constant complainer, who reckons life is filled with trials and tribulations, that whenever if I'm happy, the feeling wouldnt last and that good things never come easily to me. So now, what makes me wana blog?

Looking at all my credit card bills, I guess instead of spending money on retail therapy every time I am sad or PMS-ing, I think the cheaper alternative for me to vent out my anger, my frustrations and my sadness is by blogging. I mean blogging is not about good vocabs or not, or about what people think about you, it doesnt matter! Starting from today, this blog will be my personal diary, a place where I can put down my thoughts or opinion, a place where I am allow to create my own imaginary world without fear, a place where I get to learn more about myself as time goes by. Thats why I am here now, writing about myself despite the uncomfortable period pain, hopefully more entries to come in future. This is going to be a fun journey and I am sure of it. So pink cow, welcome to the world of blogging!!!