one hour to go exactly one hour to go before i can leave work for the day which is cool with me cause im tired and still have a sinus headache and if you havent noticed yet im just going to keep typing what im thinking because im bored and want the time to go by quickly ive heard that if you just keep writing that eventually you dstop concentrating on what you are writing and soon shit you never thought you could think will be written i dont think thats possible on a computer with a keyboard though because you have to think about what keys your ttyping of course im not even looking at the screen so i have no idea whats actually being writtin up here and theres oporbably alot of mistakes because im trying to write as fast as ican think but its hard im letting go alot more now vbecause i dont eve ncare if i make a mistake fuck all that noise isay but then again i say alot of shit ladedaddasd  wee this is alot of fun i should do this more often mmm my head feeels better already because im getting excited and smiling alot now wow this is sooo good for the soul you have no idea its like a giant blah blah bldgjawrpgj  oops brain fart oh well so i just heard aobut this guy in hawaaii who was held in contempt of the court for yelling out thank you jesus after he was not guilty of hitting his son iwth a broomstick and now people are syaing no one should be held in contempt for saying that but its not what you say it s that you say anything at all which is why you should go to jaail god when i type like this i sound so juvenile cuz i dont have time to htinkg about what im typing at all so i use the simplist words i come up with in the span of a few seconds huh i wonder if i werote a book like this is anyone whould read it phew im already getting tired of this shit and ive only been doing it for like 6 minutes, only 54 minutes to go now lets see here, oh yea atreyus horse is named artax and half the staff at on my contract at work are getting laid off and im potentially one of those people but im not worried cuz i have excellent marks in perfromance and attendace and all the people who are getttiing layed off have the chance to transfer to a new contract but i could give a flying fuck cause its either this or a new job i have no want at all in working a phone job ive doen thoise beofre and i already know that people are idiots so why would i want to spend my whole wrok week talking to them im kinda getting worried about this sinus headache i've had it for about 3 or 4 days now and i may have to start using pills to block the feelings in my head but i hate numbing my head unless its really good opiates if you know what i mean maybe a nice vicodin shit i havcent popped a good prescrptin pill in so long a nice percoset or oxcotin sounds so good right now i could just blast through these boring ays at work just like those chinese fellows at hte turn of last century,  but i guess i could always read cept all i brought was my book of movie facts nad those get boring after 15 minutes and now im think about drugs again and what i should write for part 3 of my drug reality paper and im also thinking about all the drugs im going to cnsume i=on this road trip like shrooms in disneyland and mescaline in vegas yea totally fear and loathing style but its  cool also before we leave in portland im going to get everyone to do salvia nad im going to get my best friend to smoke weed which he hasnt done since he got arrested for driving high like 2 years ago hey my head feels alot better now phew but i bet it will be back if i keep thinkgin about it so im on to something new now, god i want acid so bad ive only done it once and i want to fry really bad this ummer last time was the one of the best days that summer but really there were so many good days last summer like meeting angela and getting to know johhny really well and finding out that hes my cosmic brother and angelas my cosmic sister ands we were seperated before birth which really never gave us a chance of meeting but somehow we did god staying up with angela that first night and writing letters to eachother while sitting next to eachother i really gotta dig those letters out and post some of them they were great we were both drunk and high and i remember writing this one about ants and how they are the perfect creatures and it made her cry and i was wearing that silly hobo glove but i could only find hte one so i looked like micheal jackson and dylan cried that night too cuz he was talking about his dad who use to beat him and wow the night like 8 or 9 people all did shrooms at the original bajts house before they moved and todd was rolling on the floor with michele asking her all these questiongs about life and she just layed there drooling and we all laughed and me and kati layed in the corner nook looking out the window at all the cars passing by and the kitten came up and looked out the window with us and we laughed and i remember syaing that being a kitten must be like being on shrooms all the time and it blew katis mind for like 2 seconds and then later i think i walked all over downtown with johnny and andy and josh and andy was getting angry and violent becuz he got drunk with the shrooms and he wanted to start some shit with some asians becuz hes racist and we had to talk him down and then we sat ath this little park in the middle of downtown boise that has a water wheel and watched the water fall and we smoked and talked about life and people and god what a wonderful and perfect night that was but nothing really compared to that night on acid with johnny, we went with kati and angela and my sister emily to the western idaho fair and i remember angela was on shrooms and she came up before the rest of us and me and johnny took 2 hits each right out in the open sitting on a bench behind the big expo building and we just kept them under our toungues all night and i think i came up about the time we got in line for the ferris wheel and we watched the sunset and it was the most beautiful sunset i had ever seen and i cried a little inside because for the first time i loved the sun and ive always hated the sun so it was quite emotional for me after that we went over and watched people riding horses and i could see the skin of the horse breathing and i tried to talk to the horse but i dont know if it heard me because i was speaking with my mind and that can be hard to pick up on and then we went into the stables and i was plateauing by then and we walked past all the cows and horses and goats nad pigs and i touched one of the goats and it sensed my energy so much that it bleated with joy and the we wlaked over to the expo building again and wwent inside and saw all the arts nad crafts and oooed and awwed for a good 20 mintues we were franctic walking to and fro and pulling on eachother to look at this and that and i remmeber people staring at us and i felt so good and just smiled becuz idaho folk will never get it but oh well and outside martin came and joined us and thats when we sat in the grass behind a vendor and i just layed and stared at the sky and saw more stars and nebulas and galaxies then in my whole life and i cried again inside because i wanted to go visit all those places so bad but i knew i would never and then my sister was crying for real cuz she was on the phone with her husband who had just been shipped off to afganastan and he was really sick and i remember seeing her and wanting to hold her but i didnt because she was always so emotionally distant from the family and i didnt know how she would take it but now i wish i had held her but i played with johhny and martin and emily cheered up and bought us ice cream and then we decided to ride another ride so we wer eoff agian but this time i took the lead cuz i wanted the lead and i cant type fast enouigh now because its lal so clear and im glad im writing about htis now and i remember just walking really fast and i was moving thru the crowds and there were thousands there and i just weaved in out heading towards the rides nad everyone just followed and i remember johhny saying how cool i looked and the whole time i was imagining red blood cells flowing through viens and fish travelling rivers and cars in streets and i was all those things and more as i made my way to wherever and loved every single moment and eveyrone i saw was doing there own thing in there on galaxy on the fair universe and they were so busy not SEEING and there were fathers delegating tickets to his children who were so excited they made me excited and suddenly i was 6 again and everything was new and hte teen girls witht their friends on their phones trying to meet up with the boys and their phones and the carnies oh how i laughed at them all and they laughed too but for entirely different reasons and then the group decided on the gravitron the one where you stand upa gainst the wall and it spins you really fast and i stayed off it cuz i didnt want to push my stomach any further so everyone but me and my sis got on and me and my sis went over to the ring of fire with is a big circle with a monorail looking thing that goes all around in a circle and i layed right beneath it on the grass and everytime it hsout by it roared and thundered and i felt the energy of the ride and the people on it scremaing reverberate all throuhg my body and every time it happened i exploded inside and laughed and cried and smiled all at once and i told my sister ive never been happier and we talked all about people and the things she told me about them i saw in myself and her and it didnt matter cuz we were alive and saying hi hi hi hi hih back and forth so fast i couldnt help but laugh and smile.......................................

god damn jesus christ fuck yea that was the day of days last summer and my one and only true feeling of oneness with my sister and my girl and my friends and my world

now i've got just 24 minutes to tell you the another great day and probably the second best day of last summer it was towards the end i think and me and kati had the day off and angela came over and priscilla came over and we bought wine and all got drunk and listened to music and played music and angela sang and she has such a beautiful voice and kati got priscilla to put on this sexy dress which was so not like her i only ever saw her in jeans and she stayed in it awhile and angela drew headshots of all of us incluiding her and i still have them and they're all amazing if i ever get a scanner ill show you and i remember thinking that that was the day i got to spend all day with my 3 most favorite girls in the world and all three of them i love in a way that if i had to i could let them all go and never see them again and i would still be happy because i love them and they love me back and i walked with priscilla to get the wine and on the way back i told her that if i wasn't with kati i could definetely see myself with her and she kissed me and it was the sweetest kiss i think i've ever received and my advice is if your gonna get drunk do so with 3 angels cuz its much better

im getting tired of doing this but im glad i did cuz i havent really gotten to talk about my summer much last year, unfortunately it was a rough patch for me and kati because i fell in love with angela that summer and we were already having troubles and i ended spending almost all my free time with angela because we have that kind of chemistry where we would sit up all night and just talk talk talk about anything and evertthing and i miss it so much these days i wish i had someone i could just spend all night and day talking to and i remember when our friend Mundek took us up on a crazy trip to grangeville idaho so he could pick up a car and martin drove us in his truck and we were all wedged there and martin left the first day so we were bums in grangeville for about 3 or 4 days but im getting off track see the night before we left me and angela stayed up all night talking and we just continued to talk the whole way up and we didnt sleep till that night at a party and we just slept on the floor while everyone partied around us and by the time we fell asleep it had been over 36 hours since we had slept and sleep deprevation is the most fucking crazy drug ive ever tried i totally recommend it because man ive never been so paranoid in my life not even weed has ever made me that paranoid i mean i got a ride from a cop when my car broke down and i was high as a kite and had 3 ounces in my back pack but i just smiled nad laughed and bullshitted with cop and secretly touched the butt of his shotgun and la de freikin da i finally have work to do and i leave in 13 minutes

whew,  ill have to do this again sometime