I told my ex where he could shove his petty abusive emails and trying to cause shit between me and well my friends.

Also with that I took a leap of faith and hope in life, I completely blocked him out of my life there is no way that he can contact me even if he tried extremely hard, this

was hard for me to do considering I still had feelings for him. But it had to be done, it was obvious to me that his weed and his alcohol meant more to him then I did.

For starters he chose them over me.

And for quite some time I lost faith in the world, I thought that I'd never be happy again I'd never feel as though life was good again. But I was wrong.

Because life is better then it has ever been.

I have a job interview this evening and I've met a guy who well is just a friend for now but he's different from every other guy I know.

Actually he's probably the best guy I've met. I invited round to my place for drinks after he finished work last night we ended up talking until 3am this morning

we had a few drinks and well everything just went really smoothly. I don't feel pressured around him or like I have to try and be someone that I'm not I can just be

myself and thats good enough. Its like he doesnt expect anything of me and that what happens happens theres no urgency or forcedness to anything.

I've decided to take a year off uni or maybe longer and work earn some money and well live a little which I'm hoping will work out the way I want it to.

I've really changed quite a bit this year and well this guy is 3 years older then me but despite that I actually enjoyed last night more then any night that I've spent

with my own friends who are either younger then me or the same age as me but immature, it was good to be able to talk to someone who knew what you were on about

instead of having to explain everything in extreme detail.

well see what happens from here this is a new road and its heading a completely different direction from the one i've been on