for my sanity if nothing else. This entry will be short - just to type again. I have strayed from all forms of journaling and am not sure why. But I must begin to write again or else fall into the depths of depression. If I should go down that well I am not sure that I will be able to climb out. My situation is not unique - well, perhaps certain aspects are - but in general there is nothing earth shattering as to why I am sinking. I am not the first mom to have sons in Iraq and I certainly wont be the last. I am not the only person who has suffered and mourns the loss of a parent. I am not the only step mom in the world. I am not the only woman who is wondering what, if anything is wrong with her intimate relationship. I have a family that loves and supports me. I have my health. I have a beautiful home. I have a damn near perfect relationship. So why so blue? The words I hope will come flying out of my finger tips in the near future. But at this time, I must get my head to the place it needs to be as soon I will have to go and do my job.