After working non stop, i decided to let my hair down and have a good time with some girls. I started out at the usual pub and head on to Zouk.

The music was fantastic and i kept on moving at the dancefloor. The crowd was ok until i was pulled by a hot young man. He was a stunner from Columbia.

We danced whole night and he kept taking pictures of me. He claimed that he'll be here for only a month. Just what i needed. A young tourist looking for nothing serious but F.U.N

After Zouk, we head on to Rave for more drinks till 7 am. Didn't know what had gotten into me but we moved to Cafe Del Mar after that. The pool was so inviting and there was a blonde babe in it. I winked at her and she smiled at me. Maybe it was the alcohol or the hot sun, i removed my clothes and jumped in. "Loca", Columbian said to me. "The water is nice", i smiled at him while i made my way towards the blonde babe. He jumped in too.

Three of us clicked immediately. We had a drink introduced by Columbian. It was nice and after a while, i've discovered that the blonde babe is a lesbian. I was having a ball of my time. One minute i was cuddling with Columbian, the next, i was kissing the blonde babe.

A few hours later, i've decided that it was time to leave and Columbian suggested that we checked into one of the resorts in Sentosa. I agreed and the blonde babe seemed cool as well. Just when i thought that i'm finally having threesomes, Columbian choked. Claimed that he just wants to sleep and nothing else.

I exchanged numbers with the blonde babe before we went on separate ways.  Me and Columbian did spent time in the resort. Yes, we slept naked and cuddled.

We were so tired that we fell asleep almost immediately.

We got up at 7 pm and had sex. It was ok, realising that he's only 27. Let's just say that he still need a lot of practise.

Now, i'm not sure if i want to see him again while he's still here. It scares me when he started asking my plans for the upcoming weekend.

Now, my turn to do the disappearing act..... 

I spoke to Hot American for a laugh in the evening. Reason: I need motivation to get my arse up and head for work.

He told me stories and i kept on laughing non stop. Yeah, it's nice having friends when you needed them.

When i arrived work, everything was the same. Honestly, i'm sick of looking at myself at the mirror. Same shit everytime.

Maybe i am not feeling very sexy nowadays, hence explains my absence at the pub.

I need a revamp but where do i start?

The crowd started early and i was attending to guest at a very early time. I was done at 12 and when i checked my mobile, i received 3 missed calls from different guests. Not to mention the sms-es..

I have big problem. 2 of them wants to meet me on 2 June. Can i do the double date again?

I remembered someone ever told me 'When your social live is gone, you know it's time for a promotion'

Jeez!! Can't imagine myself as one of those workaholics? Or should i just earn as much money as possible and get out of this job?

I met a guy last night. Late 30's, Single Japanese. Everything was perfect until the question of the moment arrived.

"I don't mind you working here but after work, i'd love to have you in my room everynight", he said. "Oh, very nice offer. But you know, i come with a price tag", i smiled at him. "How much?", he raised his eyebrow. "The market price is $500. Now how many nights a week you need me in your room?", i started talking business.

"What? That's $15k a month!", he shrieked.

"I am looking for company and love", he lied hoping that i'll melt and give myself to him. "You came to the right place for company but love, oh.. wake up, honey", i told him off.

The whole night he looked confused. What does he expect from me? Be his sex slave for FREE?

True, he lived in Indonesia and everything is cheap including women but hey, i'm worth something. It's not that he's good looking or anything.

ASIAN MEN!! WAKE UP, DUDES....

Just because im a hostess, doesn't mean im desperate for a fuck. I can have a fuck with anyone i want. I PICK WHOM I WANT TO FUCK, NOT THE OTHER WAY ROUND!

It's not ok to tell a woman what she can do or what she can't do. Unless you men are offering something we can't possibly SAY NO to!

That is why, i can't stand ASIAN MEN for very long. In the pub, yes but not in my bed. First, they are bad in bed. Second, most of them do not go down unless we women go down on them first. Third, ASIAN MEN should know that we girls are lying when we say that SIZE DO NOT MATTER.

Of course, SIZE is everything.

So please, before you wanna insult an asian girl walking next to white man, check your facts first. Everything happens for a reason.

So take your traditional values elsewhere.

Looking for free fuck? Get married. 

It's been a loooong time since i write anything.. First am busy with work and juggling dates, second, am doing research on my girls go ga-ga over bartenders.

At the club, i noticed 40% of the girls like going out to discos after work. I decided to follow them for a bit of fun. I also happen to see that 10% of them have a thing for bartenders. I thought 'hmmmm, must be the free drinks and flaring skills!'

My childhood friend Mel's brother was here on holiday for a week and she seemed reluctant to meet him. Reason: "I always have to pay for everything"

I was happy with Eleanor and we did meet up with her brother when Zouk closed. Upon arrival, i was stunned looking at her brother. Yup, he was gorgeous and persistant despite me being nasty to him. The whole idea was to let Mel know that i'll never date her brother since she knows the shit that i'm up to.

She left to London on the same flight as her brother and i thought to myself, oh well, maybe i'll see him again in October since he promised me to come back on a holiday.

Then the unexpected happened. He came back after two days cause his work permit expired in Manchester and they sent him back here immediately!

When he called me, i was happy but not very excited though. Yes, there was chemistry and he is smart but just not for me. I blame it on the horoscope.

Then i went out with him and i realised something, he's a gigolo. Yes, no offense, bartenders!

He didn't even offer to pay for anything and he demands a lot. His excuse: I'm broke.

Come on, that's the lamest excuse i've ever heard in my life. He came in 6th in the bartending worldwide competition with 48 countries competing. Offered a job in a bartending school in Manchester and he's telling me he's broke. I assumed it runs in the family cause Mel would always do the same with men!

So i went to work and started asking all the girls who actually go out with bartenders. One said "You don't actually get serious with these boys. You go to the club, get free drinks and buy them supper or drinks when they're done with work".  Another said "I use them for sex and company since there's not much men available when im done with work here on boring days like Mondays".

Ahaa, so some of the bartenders are actually the opposite sex of a hostess girl. In other words, 'The male Host'

Nah, i'm not buying into all that shit. I can afford my own drinks and i don't need to keep a duck in order to entertain my life. I can always depend on Hot American to tease me and make me feel beautiful even during my bad hair day!

That's why, i'll be the last person on earth to date bartenders....

I was bored the whole of afternoon yesterday and i decided sending sms to all the men i met at work. Very good response!!

Most of them made a date with me next month. Now i'll have to plan my schedule carefully in order not to clash. Am not gonna do the double date again..

I have someone coming from Malaysia middle of next month and i'm supposed to bring him for some local food. Have another guy coming from Japan and i'm supposed to take him to Sentosa on weekend. A korean guy gave me his available dates and got me  to decide which day i'm available.

This is good. Am finally getting the hang of being a hostess.

Now how do i plan my schedule?

I must get one of those diaries so that i'll have a clearer picture on what and when i'm gonna do.

I'm feeling extremely weak this week so am gonna rest more and take it easy...

Goody!!!

Party will start only i've attended that career change seminar next Friday. Only then, i can rest my mind and start to get busy with life

I met Hot American at the pub and we kissed like old times. I was worried about people looking but he, on the other hand, just don't care. That's one of the qualities i liked about him. He's got balls!

He brought Eleanor. Ah!!! That's so sweet of you. Thank you, Hot American....

We talked and he told me about him giving a girl head for four full hours. It may sound exaggerating but you know what, i believed him! That's one of his hobby...

Now that his wife is here, we can't party like we used to. But the memories will always be there.

Now, i've been thinking about my career and i am sick of what i'm doing right now. Am still doing more research of what i'm gonna do next.

Am attending a seminar next week, then i'll decide on my next step. I really need a change of career, life and men.

I must find someone like Hot American minus the emotional talk everytime we had an argument, Aries minus the bad sex and M minus the boring stories. To shorten it, i want someone with the combination of 3 men minus their flaws. But first, a career. Man will come in second.

Hmmmmmmmm, lordy, lordy, lordy!

I attended a farewell party with Aries. His golf buddy and her girlfriend who happens to be my friend are leaving to Zurich so they held a private party at Oosh. It was exactly i expected. Full of white men and asian women with mixed babies included!  Aries insisted i tie my hair up in a ponytail and wear less make up on my face.

When i arrived, Golf buddy hugged me so tight. "Thank you for coming, Sarah. It's been a long time", he smiled. Everyone there seemed to have missed me so much and i wonder why. Then i suddenly realised, all the bitches actually have their hair up in ponytail and very minimal make up. 'Ah, now, i blended cause i have the same bad hair like they do , i thought to myself. 'Bloody insecure bitches', i smiled to their faces.  I decided not to waste my time hanging around with those people and walked around to look for kind faces. Nope, i found no faces i wanna talk to. Then Aries sat next to me holding red wine and a glass of Gin. "Red wine for the young lady", he gave me the glass. "Thank you", i replied coolly. A man came to our table and started talking to Aries. His name was Prick, wears a wedding band and he brought a date. She was in hot pants, pointy shoes and big wild curls. She looked as though she just came out of the Runway. Hottie Hot Hot!  But no one seemed to be interested in her!

Reason: She looked better than all the bitches in the party. Honestly, i sympathize with her cause she has taken over my place. Now i know why the bitches are so suddenly nice to me, they had finally found a NEW TARGET.

I tried talking to her but it was useless. What's more sickening, her married lover has been talking to me and leaving her out of the conversation. How isolated she must have felt! Then i saw her walking out of the party. Not even her date cared about her leaving. In fact, everyone pretended as though nothing happen. Everyone seemed to have smiles and a million questions on their faces. I was finally accepted in the WAGS group. Then the debate started.

It seemed that every MARRIED bitches in the group seemed to have an issue with me being SINGLE. Prick joined in the conversation and accidentally blurted out "Dysfunctional Single Woman'. "Oh, says the man who brought a date other than his own wife to the party", i smiled at him. Everyone was encouraging me to be with Aries indirectly. Some suggested that i opened up a boutique in Germany! "I appreciate what you people are trying to do here but at the moment, i am happy waking up alone without having any man snoring next to me every morning", i joked. "Besides, Aries and i are no longer together", i continued in one breath. "So what's your relationship then?", asked Prick. "We are Whatever!", i replied with the utmost sincerity. "It's nice having someone doing something with you. Right now, what you are doing is cute but ten years down the road, not so cute!", Prick giggled. "Well, it's my life and i shall do what i deemed fit!", i said with the utmost confidence.

Aries saw me being surrounded by a pack of wolves and quickly came to my rescue. "Hey, hey, don't bully my little Orang!", he joked.

Everyone burst out in laughter. The evening went very well cause i am suddenly Miss Popular and Aries just do not understand why i refused to start all over with him.

I have a life and i deserve all the happiness in the world! Why waste it on a man who do not know me?

Leo finally arrived from Spain with her boyfriend. We went to the movies, do girly stuffs and lots of shopping!!

She managed to get tickets and all four of us attended The Cryatal Mirror. It wasn't what i imagined. Outside, it looked like a silly huge white tent but on the inside, i was back in 1920s. It was nostalgic and everything was dark red. Ver sensual and mirrors everywhere. The performances was fabulous and food was fantastic. I would love to dine there everyday but the party's over now.

All four of us were happy. There was Leo and her boyfriend. My date was Aries, my x hubby. Yeah, call me a bitch. I actually spent a fortune looking absolutely gorgeous, including a pair of Manolo Blaniks. Put on my 'I don't need a man' diamond ring and wear it at my ring finger. I was glad that i can see it in Aries eyes, he lost what meant most to him!

I may have lost the battle but this time, i won the Goddamn WAR!

After the event, we head for some cocktails. Leo left early and i had one too many cocktails. Ended up in Aries bed, had bad sex and left even before he gets up.

I felt powerful cause i don't need the emotional attachments.

I can finally have sex like a man and not worry about matters of the heart bullshit.

By the way, i am no longer talking to Taurus. Reason: He wasn't man enough for me.

Feels so good to finally loving myself again

I met Hot American on my night off from work. We talked and joked just like old times'.  As we were walking to the main road, he kissed me. It's nice though but it doesn't feel the same. The kiss is just a kiss. More like obligatory on my side. There's no passion in it. I'm sure he felt the same way!

He was something that i've been missing. S.E.X.

But i turned him down. Don't know why i did that! Guess it was the right thing to do..

Personally i don't do re runs so i am willing to accept him as my friend. When i mentioned the word friends, it meant NO SEX..

Banker sent me sms today and apparently the whole world is looking for me. I remained silent the whole of Sunday afternoon. At least get the radiation out from my ears for a couple of hours.

Felt so good to finally spend time alone with myself, wearing nothing and eating ice cream with chocolate syrup. Heaven!!

Then in the evening, i head for work and i met the weirdest man ever. He was shorter than i am and he was wearing all white including his shoes.. Can you believe it?

He was the exact replica of Virgo. Short, successful and incredibly full of himself!

I got bored listening to him talking about his businesses and an x girlfriend who begged him to take her back. Shorties! Wake up dude!! Or at least get a leg job and make yourself taller!  Then he asked me if i wanna spend the night in his room tonight. Claimed that he can make me cum again and again!

I replied "Next time, huh"

Not sure what i'm looking for in a man if i wanna get laid nowadays. Being sexless is beginning to be fun! In a sense that i'm more picky.

I had lunch with M on weekends and we had this little talk. "Sarah, why don't you just get a loaded man and get married?", M asked. I almost choked on my baked rice. "Oh, you think it's so easy?", i glared at him. "Why didn't you screw your virgin girlfriend?", i giggled. "I got a blowjob", he smiled cheekily. "And i am having the time of my life", i smiled. "Look at it! I'm sure your husband will never get bored with you. You're fun to be with", M tried to convince me. "What makes you think that i won't get bored with this so called husband of mine?", i laughed. "M, i have a brain and i don't need a grown up man hanging around me all the time. Think about it! If i'm married, i won't be sitting here with you", i winked.

When i got home, i began to think about M's words. Getting married and having the same man around me?

I'm no longer 12, you know. Back then, all i wanted was to be a stewardess, get married and live in a five room flat. Today, i am not a stewardess and marriage was the last thing on my mind! Being a hostess is a real eye opener.

I'm not judging but it's the married men who misbehaves in these girly bars. While single men behaves at their best, married men are the ones who invite me for dinner and even supper! So why should i get married? I can just remain a girlfriend so that i'll be appreciated further. That is, if i want a relationship. Right now, i just want a good night sleep and a nice shower after work.

No fuss, no muss.

It's almost three months living sexless and you know what, it's not so bad!

Let's see how long i can live in the drought..

I finally met Taurus after a few days of waiting. I was tipsy after work and met him at Orchard Towers. His colleagues were all there and everyone welcomed my presence with warm hands. Within minutes, i was already having conversations with all of them.  I felt like i'm with my own boys!

We hopped from one bar to another and i had too much wine by then. Taurus didn't want to kiss me at first cause he was having cough but what the heck!

We kissed most of the time. I love kissing him. "Beware, i could get use to this, you know", i teased him. It was a whole night of fun and i was never alone. His friends are superfun and extremely friendly. We ended the night at 6 cause we agreed to end the night early.

I texted him when i got up today. He took leave from work as his cough is getting from bad to worse. We texted for a few hours.

It's been going on a few weeks now and things are really looking up with this guy!

My next step is to revamp myself..

Since male are visual creatures, i like to be pleasant for him to look at!

Am meeting Hot American next week. It's nice having him around again even though sex is off the menu.

After a long and hard consideration, i decided to make a move on Taurus. Who cares if he has a girlfriend sleeping next to him at home? She is like the television and i'm like the handphone. The difference: Television is always at home and always ready when you need to use it while a handphone is something you'll never leave home without. In this world today, no one can never live without their handphones!

So i'm definitely more special than the television at home. Am sick of going on bad dates and living without sex for more than two months. Right now, Taurus is indeed getting a rush thinking that his chase is working. What he doesn't know, i allowed it to happen. I had a strategy and it will go as planned but i will not have sex with him yet.

Am gonna wait for that vulnerable moment when he had a fight with that television at home, only then he'll have me!

Right now, am on the look out for the killer lingerie and have been seducing his mind via sms during midnight. He seems to be addicted to me. I would tease him with a few sentences and not reply for a couple of hours. You should read his 'worried' texts to me. Am meeting him tomorrow after work..

Can't wait!

It was M's birthday and i decided to skip work on Saturday night. E gave him 7 deadly shots and by midnight, M knocked out. Brought him back to bestfriend's place, put him to bed and went out again to join the boys at a sleazy joint in Tanjong Pagar.

Well, it's been a long time since i partied with the boys. Last time, we were in Orchard Towers!

Now, the boys were planning to go to Bali next month and i will join them if they decided to go. I have never travelled with them, i'm sure it'll be a blast.

M woke up in the afternoon and we had a little chat over coffee. "You know something, i think the boys have accepted you as one of their buddies. Now you don't have to worry about being taken advantage of cause you're one of them. Next time, if you bring a man over, you'll be looked upon as homosexual. So i'd suggest you bring only your female friends. Beautiful ones only", M joked. "Ya, very funny! You sick perverts", i tapped his shoulder.

It was a slow sunday afternoon and i ended up with a bad date. The lunch was fabulous, movie sucks and my date was so full of himself. End of the day, i know everything about him and he knows zero about me. Fantastic!

I think i should draw up a chart and start categorising the man. Toxic bachelors and Non toxic bachelors.

Honestly, i'm having too much fun. Being stuck with only one man will only devastate the rest of the men.

My new pick up line : Are you special? Ya? Ooh, sorry, i only date unspecial men!

Well, well, well,

i realised today why my feelings suddenly stopped for Taurus! He became too predictable.

First, we meet in the same club for almost three times now and today he's in the same club AGAIN! That proves something... He's one of those disco boy. Another trader with money. Single, extremely cute and a big player as well.

At least i know when my next orgasm gonna be. Why waste time on building relationship with someone else's man when i can just have sex with him as and when i want to.

The whole idea is not to reveal my home address and home number. There's always cheap motels if i really want him. So far, two months without sex is really going well for me.  But i can't let it hit the three months mark or else it will grow over.

Now that i have found a new candidate to have sex with, i can finally put my worries down. I really don't need a bullshit relationship right now.

No more special guys for me, only fuckable ones

I'm not sure what's wrong with me. Just yesterday, i was head over heels with Taurus and yet today, my feelings towards him were gone. No more butterflies in my stomach or excitedness when i thought of him!

What exactly went wrong?

Could it be that he feels the same way too?

How can it be? There are strong chemistry between us and after a day of not meeting, i woke up feeling like myself again.

Wow!! I do get tired of people very easily, huh.

Aries called me last night. "Yes, Aries", i asked. "What are you doing?", he asked with full of nervousness. "Eating. What's up?", i asked coldly. "Can we meet this Sunday?" "I'm not sure", i said. "What do you want?", i asked again. "I miss you", he replied.

I hang up on him.

As long as he's still in my life, i can't move on. Maybe that's why i suddenly lost all feelings for Taurus.

Is it possible that i might have some feelings for Aries?

JERK!

It's strange when you meet a new person and for the first time in my life, i am extremely comfortable . If i ever knew what i wanted, then i must have found him. Only one problem, he has a girlfriend and i have a life. He's this sweet little thing, drinks till morning and time passed too quickly. Bad influence? Yes... Good kisser? Absolutely

I'm not sure why i'm attracted to him. Our horoscope sign didn't match. I'm a Cancer and he's a Taurus but i can't deny this strange feeling inside. Whatever it is, i know it's not love. Honestly, i'm done with L.O.V.E

Goodbye means nothing at all to me but i just can't get enough of him. I touched him last night while dancing. He's not that big but from my experience, guys with smaller penis always try harder and that's where "Size doesn't matter" comes about. Performance do count, ladies.

Anyway, i'm not gonna sleep with him yet even though im dying to but i'm just gonna let him wait...

What is it about him that i'm attracted to?

I have been so busy with my life that i can hardly breathe! Am trying to shut down the company and many people told me different things and my cousin just cheated money from me. That's why i hate lending money.. You'll never get it back! Shit!

I asked Hot American for a favour and he did helped me. Thank you, Hot American..

After a stressful week, i decided to let my hair down and explore Naughty Girl in Orchard Towers.. Girls are gorgeous and i tipped one of the dancers in her panties. I filled her up and it felt great touching a fanny again.. Then i met a gut that i liked.

He was gorgeous, brown eyed and brown hair. I smiled and went over to introduce myself. "I like you! You're H.O.T!", i giggled. He smiled back and replied "Thanks, you're beautiful as well".. A couple of hours later, i knew everything about him. He's a mixed breed. Mummy's a Brit and Daddy's a Malay. Brought up in England yet never forgets his Malay roots.  We are so alike in many ways. One of them is, we never dated Malays in our adult life.

We went to Bedroom and we left only at 8am in the morning. He tried to kiss me but i didn't want to kiss him though!

That's what happen when i really like someone.

Our chemistry was overwhelming and i can't get my hands off him. Then he received a phonecall.

"Hello Darling, i'm on my way home now!", he answered. Suddenly, a cloud just fell on my drunk face. When he ended the call, i looked at him. "Darling?", i raised an eyebrow. "I have a live in girlfriend but it's only been a year and i'm not sure if i want to marry her", he claimed.

"Sure", i turned cold. "Hey, come on, we had fun, right", he tried to placate me. "Sure"

He tried to cuddle me in the taxi but i tried to stay away from him. Honestly, i'm tired of being with other woman's men. Whether their married or attached, it all comes to the same thing! The other woman always turns out to be a fuck buddy.

I guess i spoke too soon. A couple of days later, i met him again and this time, i kissed him and touched him "there"

I must not let my bible go to waste. I must seduce him to the end and leave him begging for more!

There's always a first to everything. First kiss, first dance, first date.. Tonight was my first night at the club, not as a tailor but a Hostess.

I was extremely sober and nervous at the same time. "Don't worry, they'll love ya", assured the Mamasan.

"Sakato san, korewa Lisa chan desu", she introduced me to this tanned japanese man. "Hajimemashte", i greeted him. "Lisa chan, dozo yoroshiku", he bowed. "Yoroshiku onegaishimas", i bowed back and sat next to him. "It's my first day of work tonight so please be nice to me", i smiled nervously. "You speak very good japanese", he complimented me. "Thank you", i smiled.  Sakato is a good looking 40 year old man. Doesn't look a day after 32! Lived in Bangkok for 4 years and he's here on business trip till Sunday. He's not much of a singer but he jokes and that really helped a lot. Time flies very quickly and it was time for him to leave.

"What a pity, you have to leave soon", i pouted. "You can leave too. I paid for all your booking charges", he winked. I am still raw about the system so i don't really get what he was talking about. I walked him out of the club and he tipped me.

"Arigatou gozaimasu", i bowed. When i went back to the locker room, i looked at the bill he gave me. Holy Crap! It was 30,000 yen, which means it is approximately about $450. Very generous of him!!

I asked the Mamasan about the system and she told me that the guests pay hourly for the hostess charge. Hostess are not allowed to leave the club before 1.45am unless their guests paid 8 hours to the company, then only the hostess are allowed to leave early.

My first night is an extremely good experience for me. 3 hours of work and i earned almost 1k, just like that!

Wow!! Can't wait for tomorrow..

I got a job offer from one of the nightclub. The money is extremely good and i'll be mad not to take up the offer.

Hostess. It's not as bad as it sound. The girls are dressed in cocktail dresses and entertaining businessman (Absolute A list)

For a start, they offered me 300 a day excluding tips, drinks commission and other extras. I don't have to go to bed with anyone unless i want to. No fuss, no muss!

Not sure if i can really do it but it's worth a try...

Hmmmm, should i?

10K a month!

It's better than being a drama teacher in an international school or being pregnant!

Glitz and glamour....

It's like walking on a red carpet except it's an everyday thing

I got up extremely early today. Thoughts of Aries filled my mind. Memories of him, the idea of not being a part of him shake me to the core. Was it a mistake?

Instead of having my first glass of wine at 9 am, i did spring cleaning listening to Linkin' Park (Numb) again and again. I was sweating and endorphins rushed. I felt instantly happier.

Then i went back to sleep after a nice shower. Have an important meeting tonight so i can't appear lethargic or weak in any way.

I refuse to believe that i might still love him. It will go away, i'll make sure of it.

I just need time or maybe a nice holiday. After a week of not working, my workload doubled. More money for me, double work for my tailors.

Right now, i'll keep a lookout on where to go. Two weeks will be nice.

Maybe a nice beach holiday.