I'm very nervous! Russian flew in from Thailand this morning. Now he's staying at a suite with Leo and Cancer keeping him company.. Lucky bastard!

Three against one.. That one is me... I'm not sure leaving Aries is the right thing to do. I think i love him and walking away is just not the right thing to do or is it?

Why am i not good enough for him?

Why am i barren?

Why does that slut have to get pregnant?

Why? Why? Why?

Too many questions, too little time.

I thought my life was fabulous even though it's  far less than perfect.

How do i live my life without him?

Russian, Leo and Cancer are going to have a party right after my break up with Aries tomorrow night.

Will i be able to put on a smile then?

Will the window of joy will finally open?

Best solution right now: Go shopping and look fabulous.

Go Sarah!!