After a week of dating strangers, i've decided to go back to work. It's been great but i do not see myself dating strangers any longer. Rebound week  is over. I'm single again and Aries will be a father soon. I wish him happiness.. Just don't feel like being nice or hear from him again.

According to my friends, it's fine for me to stay away from him.

I'm contemplating on changing my mobile number but there's too many people who knows my current number. Will have to sleep on it and really consider on my next step. I don't think it's healthy for Aries to call me even once a year.

As the song goes, another step that i take, is another mistake for you.. a little more of me, a little less of you. Who do i need when i come undone?

Only i can help myself. No amount of shoes or prozac is gonna mend my broken heart. So i'm gonna do it my way..

It's not gonna be easy but it's worth a try. Had spoken to Bag this morning and he decided to give me a few months to really consider my options before i Europe with him. I know it sounds silly but i think after all this time, he still wants me back. The man who can't commit, taking a big step on giving me a new life and a chance to broaden my horizon then to get stuck on a tiny island where i'm surrounded by scandals and people who hurt me deliberately.

I'm under pressure of walking even in my running shoes. Merlot do not taste that good anymore and  cigarettes is just an addiction.

Yes, people, i am depressed. Everything happened too quick and who is actually at fault?

I can no longer put the blame on other people just to make myself feel better. No strength to live yet too afraid to die.

I wish that i am in a bad dream but this is real and i have to face up to it. Words come easy but actions are a harder to do. If my life is a movie, i'll pack my suitcase full of regrets and get on a jet plane but this is reality. Surprisingly, it scared the shit out of me!

I do not wish for anyone to be in my shoes right now.