I got up extremely early today. Thoughts of Aries filled my mind. Memories of him, the idea of not being a part of him shake me to the core. Was it a mistake?

Instead of having my first glass of wine at 9 am, i did spring cleaning listening to Linkin' Park (Numb) again and again. I was sweating and endorphins rushed. I felt instantly happier.

Then i went back to sleep after a nice shower. Have an important meeting tonight so i can't appear lethargic or weak in any way.

I refuse to believe that i might still love him. It will go away, i'll make sure of it.

I just need time or maybe a nice holiday. After a week of not working, my workload doubled. More money for me, double work for my tailors.

Right now, i'll keep a lookout on where to go. Two weeks will be nice.

Maybe a nice beach holiday.