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4/5/2007 - An emotional and tumultous chapter is at its end

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That's it...I turn to write a clean page in my life today.

My so called friend who I had a 4 year relationship with and I ended it. If you do not know what I am talking about you can go to my earlier posts but here is a recap. A couple of weeks ago she called me up and said that she want to end the relationship based on religion. I felt hurt and anger and very negative emotions. She basically went into why she was ending it...blah, blah, blah. Fast forward it. After I took the time to send her a birthday card and a Easter card I received a call telling me 'I appreciate the card but do not put blessings.' I admit I made a mistake in not telling her I was angry. That was my mistake. I was just shocked and could not believe it. I had sent it with a general blessings not a religious blessings. I emailed her telling her my feelings because I honestly thought that I could get my feelings out through an email than over the phone. I am more calm and collected that way. I made a mistake in doing that as well. I should have been up front. I was not. Silly me in thinking I could email and not be told that I wasn't womanly enough to face up. I do not like confrontations. I get negative and I do not like myself afterwards. Anyway, today was the final straw. I had a nightmare last night about me being enraged and it scared me. I think one of my personal deities sent it to me as a premonition or warning. I called her on my last lunch break and explained that I did not want to pursue a friendship any longer because this is an emotionally tumultous period of my life. She called me back with an attitude and when I said that what she was saying was like the pot calling the kettle black, she hung up. I told her that she had opened Pandora's box...and she did. I did not want to go out like this. However, I will not be called a deceitful bitch because I am not reading the bible at this point in time. I plan to in the summer because I will have free time to take it to work and read it deeply and with an objective mind. I will no longer be harassed, manipulated, or called names. I have a life and excuse me if EDUCATION is one of my main priorities. She will not like that I posted this...but I do not care. I have not referred to her name. I have the right to express my feelings online. That is all for now. Friendships come and go...at least my best friend Angie still cares for me deeply and I know I can truly rely on her.

Blessings!

Serenity