12/23/2005 - just this hour

i got up this morning and got down on my knees,

and asked my higher power, "would you help me please?"

you see, i have this addiction ,and it won't go away.

will you help me higher power, not to use just for today?

yes, i know to stay clean and sober i must go to any length,

but when i start to think, it seems i loose my strength.

so i'm calling on you now higher power, please help me, if you can hear.

please take away this urge i have to drink more everclear.

i did all 12 steps, in just one day, so with them i would be done.

but still each day with my obsession, also comes the sun.

"keep coming back", and "easy does it", i hear at meetings,

but my guilt and my resentments keep giving me these beatings.

lately my life is especially unmanageable, and i'm not sure how to cope.

one thing i know is that i can't fix anything by smoking up more dope.

now i've saved up all of my problems, and i've piled them into a mass.

then i call my smart ass sponser and she said, "this too shall pass."

so here i am, on my knees again, begging "please help me higher power,"

and if i find TODAY too long, please help me just this HOUR!!