1/26/2006 - CUTTER'S WITHDRAWAL
The pain arrives once again
And this time I am ready
Blood in my veins yearns to flow
But now I hold steady
I lock up the knives
When the urge starts to come
Temptations are strong
But I refuse to succumb
The pain sharpens quickly
Thoughts of bloody blades in my mind
Heart screams for physical pain
To numb the emotional kind
I look around for a blade
But there are none in sight
I run quickly to my bedroom
On the bed I curl up tight
Quivering and shaking violently
Trying to forget about the pain
To escape, to go to sleep
To erase it from my brain
The next morning I wake up
Put on a happy mask
And pretend I'm not haunted by
The pain of my troubled past
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