I signed into one of my online support group to find a friend I've been chatting with for 10 months had commit suicide last week. I kinda feel guilty even though there was nothing I could do. Its just so sad she was only 19 years old and had rough childhood. This news just saddens me more. I just hope she found peace. I know her sister and friend were the only ones that seemed to care. So, Kate may you rest in peace my dear friend.

This is just one of many things that I am terrified. I know I talked about this in a previous post but this just brings the facts up about how bad these illnesses effect the thinking of a person. Its devastating!