Ah things I can’t explain. My mind is racing yet I’m depressed. I feel like everything around me is going in slowmo and yet I’m so tired even to move. I wish I could wake up normal. I feel so alone yet I’m surrounded by people. I wish I could disappear and so I wouldn’t be a burden. My mind is hardly ever here so why can’t I just drift off. Would anyone care? My mind saddens me with all that I have forgotten. I need to feel and live once again. Damn ME! I’m a reject in all aspects of life. I can’t work so no income and everything beyond my doors scares the fuck out of me. I hate to show what’s beyond this mask in fear yet I know I have nothing to fear. Maybe I’m hopeless or to far gone to be saved. I can’t do this anymore! I am gonna try to survive till next week.

Later……