Well being stuck in the middle of two siblings sucks. Both of them got married this year and well it once again has me thinking. Will I ever take that leap or am I destined to stay alone? Then there is the whole baby thing. I want to have a child or two of my own yet I think with these illnesses I won’t be a good mother. I mean sometimes I think I can and others I feel I’d fuck up and have my child taken away. Damn this head of mine!