2/22/2010 - Another sleepless night
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3:13 a.m. Jesus I don't know if it's a lack of drugs or if I just have a bad case of insomnia. I wouldn't be surprised if it's because I'm so damned uncomfortable in this place I had to deal with a one hour lecture yesterday morning, it was Hell! I simply can not wait until April when I can finally thumb my nose at these people I knew I shouldn't have come here in the first place I really wish it haden't have happened this way now there are things that were in place that are gone that I may never be able to get back unless I go back east. But I want to go north! I no longer wonder why people in my position choose suicide, it's starting to look like a grand alternitave indeed! I would love nothing more than to pull the trigger on myself right in front of these people and leave behind a note stating "You did this to me weither you choose to believe it or not! I'm gone because of you!" I just can't stand to be humiliated over and over again! I really hope I don't have to listen to another lecture again I don't think I'll be able to handle it Hell I just might call my ex and have her come get me if this shit keeps up! I have to get out of here I can't take being around these people anymore it's getting to be way too much to deal with! I just wish and I keep saying this that someone would please tell me what it was that I did that was so wrong as to warrant my life being a continuous living Hell? Would someone please, PLEASE tell me, so I can make ammends! Whoever I hurt whatever I did I'm sorry God do you hear me? Please stop torturing me! I'm sorry, so sorry PLEASE Just stop I'm begging you I need a break I really can't take much more it's becomming to much to bear! PLEASE GOD! I'M BEGGING YOU TO STOP THIS! |
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