Well l have done over 10,000 steps today which lm bloody proud of.  Tonight l went and dropped some of G's pamphlets around the neighbourhood. 

Got him to pick me up at the end of the street which took me 2 hours to walk basically.  We came home and had sex which was great, to feel him inside me etc.

But since then things have gone from good to bad, l am now not able to text him, call or visit as he wants nothing to do with me. 

Im crying cause lm in pain, l thought he loved me but he didnt, l thought he cared for me but he didnt.  Why did l even think he did