Well today hasnt been a good day emotionally at all, l went to the doctor today as lm a mess with Logans 3rd year anniversary of his death coming up.  He has gone and uped my medication from 300mg to 400mg at night.  My doctor was great to talk to about it all, so lm pleased l felt right in myself to go and see him.

Tonight lve been in tears, been laughing alsorts.  I gave G a letter tonight saying whats been happening and how l wanted his forgiveness but l dont think its got me far at all. I spoke to my mate Michael and we had a good chat so that was good to catch up with him, hes told me to text him or call if l want to chat so that is great.  Its weird l felt so alone that l was becoming dependant on G just to feel happy. Missing Tiana tonight just wanting one of those cuddles you get from your little girls hehe.