Im so annoyed with myself, why is it l invite G to live with me only to have someone control all that l do.  I fuckin hate the fact that l have now gone and bloody broken my heart again, due to the fact that all my past feelings of love have come back to haunt me.

Yesterday was a great concert for Tiana, she did really well in it.  Shit has hit the fan though with G and me, lm finding myself hating being in my own house.  Im being treated like shit by the man that l honestly for some reason thought was starting to love me again.

The tears and anger are just rolling and rolling from my eyes and mouth, the fact that lm beginning to hate G is probably a good thing on his part as in the end l will be able to let him go like he has so longed.

Hes gone and taken Tiana to the hardware store because of the way l have been treating her worse than a dog, but the fact is lm getting treated the same way by him. I cant handle this arguing or hate towards each other anymore. I just want things to be the way they were.  Its the hearing him say lm his better half, which in my eyes is saying lm his girlfriend but in his world l am not.  Why.....

The times where lve gone and written how much l love him and his turning and writing Glenn says ditto is that not telling someone they are special to you like a girlfriend is.  Or the times where lve said l love you when lve gone to sleep and hes gone and said it back to me. 

When will this pain stop, one day soon l hope