The rest of my week has been surprisingly ok.  Ive been told lm not having Tiana back till l am happier in myself but the problem is my parents dont realise the way l get treated is what is making me uphappy with myself.

Im missing my little girl quite alot really, lm missing the night time cuddles when shes sound asleep to the morning wakeups with "Mum can l have some ice cream" as much as that little phrase is annoying its funny as lm missing it so much.

Ive cleaned out Tiana's room and got rid of all the shit that was in there, but lm keeping the doll and her clothes, the crayons for drawing etc, and some clothes for her if she was to come over.  I hope that will happen sooner rather than later really but hell if it doesnt what can l do.  My mate Jane has called me today havent heard from her in such along time but shes been really busy with her degree so just put in her final assignment for this first year so happy for her.  We talked for like 50 minutes about life in general - shes invited me to the community xmas lunch on xmas day so am considering going along to it.  Also had a phone call from a friend called Wendy, only a short call to ask me if l want to go to see the movie about the Lion the Witch and the wardrobe.  Told her its not really a movie that l would go to, but G is saying that l should go.  Me and G are getting on ok, hes gone into Tiana's room which is so much better as it gives us both our own space rather than being in each others bed.  Missing the intimacy, but hell its better to be as friends than anything that isnt going to go anywhere. 

So my week is going ok at the moment, spoke to Tiana today which was great to hear her little voice.  Told my dad that l have stuff to bring over as l had cleaned her room up but he said that it wasnt a good day to bring it over as it was raining, but when my mum rang up to check if l had done a CD for Tiana's xmas she went and tried to have a go about me bring over the shit to her house.  God l cant do anything right with that family at the moment.

If you have msn you can get me on spotty108@hotmail.com this is for messenger as well. Thanks to Claire for your ongoing comments it really makes me feel at ease knowing someone is watching out for me on this cyber world.