okay... so now i am using this... dark reddish color of an ink to write this entry... i don't really know what made me use this but i just clicked it... don't argue with it.

so here... i am back from the said vacation and now, i am not so sure if i really should've gone back... i had a choice to stay but i came back to this town and to my school and to my house... whatever. i just went back and now, i am sooooooo in a bothersome state of cramming...!!!!! i am waaaayyyy way way behind the lessons, even if i was only gone for two friggin' days! who knows how much i hate that fact....

and now, i still am really lazy and stressed out to draw backgrounds for a stupid project... and i just wish our teacher would assign something more easier.... this thing that has to be done is due within a week and me and my group only have 4 golden days to work on it and if it was to be rated in the hardness scale of 1-10? i'd give it a 10.5!!!! and i am so sure everybody in our class would agree with me.... i am sooooo going out of my mind...

i just finished 4 projects and i still have to finish the one i was just talking about... which is considerably the hardest among the things i have to do... i know i can draw, i'm kinda good at it but i do not draw backgrounds and stuff!!!!! i just draw cartoons.... caricatures.... god!!!!!! i want to go somewhere where there's no homeworks, exams, projects.... somewhere where i can enjoy my youth...

i am pressured in school...

i am pressured at home...

i am pressured almost everywhere i go...

when will this stop? no, i am not being too paraniod or acting to sensitive... i just feel there's something wrong... i don't know if it is with me or with what is being thrown to me...

oh well... know i shouldn't care that much... i should not think on it as much as i do now.... let it be.....