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maybe it's just not my day today... i don't know why, i just feel a bit out of control... in a way that i don't speak as much as i do from day to day. i am a jolly person and i always laugh at the things i'm supposed to be feeling sad about. it's just me, no more and no less... but today, i just don't feel like being the ME i just said...
i went at karen's place for her birthday celebration... some friends are there... but (even karen for instance) did not feel as good as she expected. out of those few guests she bothered to invite, some kind of... you know, tried to fit in... i'm talking about vina and monique. well.. it was okay in the end but at first, we all felt like walking on eggshells as we tried to talk. out of the things that happened, a boundary or a wall was built way up between us that we can't seem to reach each other anymore. i stayed quiet and mingled with other people but i just did not feel like talking for the whole day. wait a sec, this is not me! i am not used to myself feeling low and down in the mud.. this is sooo not me! |
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Well, you see they are not actually choosing their guys over you, they are just taking you a little bit for granted, and its natural, so nobody can be blamed. You know what its like, when you're with a guy who just makes you tick. Makes you feel special and wonderful and like his little fairy princess, your perspective is a little hazy and the priorities get messed up. They'll be back(your friends), don't you worry, girl, coz in the end, its just your friends who are always there no matter what! lolz, and you can absolutely 'barge into' my love life as much as you want. Actually a view point thats different would be good, considering i dont know what to do, if somebody else can figure out, that just helps, you see? And to answer your question, I thought I was in love, probably it was just an illusion. I'm a pretty practical person and quite sure of myself, that's normally. Right now, quite messed up. I think perhaps your mumz right, this stuffz infatuation, completely, its just that my ego, self-image took such a major blow. and That HURTZ!... wat waz ur experience? I'm a 'sikh'. Look it up. Lolz, we find friendshipz where they're least expected, dont we? That's just the magic of life.... |
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I've experienced dat in the last few years of my life.. and baby, it only increases as the years go by. It isn't their fault (your frends). It's human nature.
There's this theory (not mine - some official pschologist) who says, you start life, being friends with everyone, and slowly, it breaks down to groups. And then the groups become smaller , more exclusive - say, by high school and then university time, it starts breaking down to couples.
Absolutely unfair! Right? I have this amazing awsome group of girl friends from school. Like we did everything together!! And every birthday we get together and make up these amzaing sentimental birthday gifts - touching, really! But now, most of them have boyfriends and that means a whole other world you're not part of. And the worst of it is- suddenly, you're not their first priority anymore. Like, you have this huge problem going on in life, and their bf calls up, and uh-oh YOU are the one who has to hang up, right?? Thats just bad!
Hm.. so I guess you just gotta do whats comfortable and good for you. Make other friends, diversify.. It's good.. You'll work it out! Hey, and anytime there's an asap typa emergency - email me! k? ill b der..
Chillax girl..
Keep smiling,
Meeta