gomen nasai... for everything.

i know i can say this practically everyday, that i'm dreadfully sorry for every little mistake that i do... but this time it's different... it's much harder for me to say sorry that counts for all the wrong things i did, ever.

to my mom, sorry if i made you cry right before you boarded that plane. i'm sorry that all i ever did is whine when you want me to do things that i don't want to do. i'm sorry if i can't help but be stupid sometimes.

to my dad, i'm sorry if i'm just that good. i'm sorry if at times i can't tend to what you want me to do. i can accept the fact that i'm weak but i want you to be proud of me for what i am.

to my grandmother, i'm sorry for being like a little stupid kid. i'm sorry for letting you down at times. i'm sorry if i hadn't washed the dishes last night... i forgot about it. sorry.

to my grandfather, i'm sorry if i sit beside you and cry and never bother to tell you the reason why. no, i'm not leaving you out of my life, i just don't know how to tell you that i'm hurt or what.

to my brother, i'm sorry if i'm such a snob... if i'm always like what you said, you know, like a phantom haunting my own soul... i never meant to be that way... maybe i just am.

to my aunt, i'm sorry if i'm always miserable... and no, i'm not a goth or emo or punk... i'm completely normal and average for a fifteen-year-old... you don't have to worry.

to my best friends, sorry if at times i can't find the way to lighten up... maybe i'm just caught up in what i'm thinking and i can't think clearly. i hope you understand.

to my friends, i'm sorry if i still can't bear the fact that you backstabbed us for some reason. i forgive you but i'm sorry if it had to be this way.

to my classmates, i'm sorry if i can't find the way to reach out to you guys and open up. i'm just... a little bit shy and i don't know what i'm losing. sorry.

to my teachers, sorry, i don't mean to be another wretched kid. i do study, i do get high grades... but i'm sorry if at times i'm too noisy... i just want to have some fun. sorry.

to my cousins, sorry if i can't spend much more time with you guys, school's practically beating the crap out of me... but summer is coming soon.

i know i have so much more apologies to post... i'll post specifically and even more... humurous. i hate drama.