my brain is under construction

my heart has a razor blade that tears it apart...

i'm broken

i'm bound to walk a path i never chose.

i'm hiding behind my fear

behind my smile

behind the reality that crushes me

hiding from the truth i'm afraid to face.

i run, i search for my solemn salvation.

i found nothing.

nothing is what it seems.

i can't find my answers.

i'm down to my tears that never proved to be of any help.

once again, i try.

and in the end, i cry.

i carry a heavy load on my shoulders...

my knees are giving away.

my soul is bleeding.

the bloody melody is ringing in my head and i can't take it away.

it's like my life is passing my by...

like i am just a fire, burning inside...

and turning everything into darkness.

i cry. i falter. i break down.

then again, i was brave enough.

brave enough to say i never did anything right.