your eyes aren't fooling you buddy. yeah... i'm bored enough to scream at the top of my lungs, I AM BORED!!!!!!

for the first time in my life... i feel so bummed out. for about a week or so i never walked out of our oak front door to even take a humble peek at our garden. no, not that i don't feel like going out... it's just that i don't have reasons to go out... plus i'm kinda bankrupt these days... dad cut off my allowance so that i'll be forced to study all my life... but oh no dad, you can't put me like this forever!!! i'll have.... *coughs nervously* revenge?? perhaps... now on with the discussion of my boring summer...!!!! drum roll please.. thank you...

to start off... as i have mentioned, i have nothing to do... the stupid UPCAT review is not until may 8 so that only means... no allowance until the horrible day of may 8... wherein i can't exactly hang out for i have to do the dreaded "s" thingy... S-T-U-D-Y is what it is...and i'm friggin' hating it.

next... i survived weeks of rotting in jail!!!!!! no, not really jail... this house just feels like a jail! all i do is wake up, eat, take a damn bath if i feel like it, go online, watch t.v., get bored for the nth time... and run around the house screaming, "waaaaaaahhhhh"

next.... i can't help thinking about the billions and billions of people out there, hanging out... swimming in resorts... going bar hopping... malling and shopping... *stops* i friggin' hate to think about the other stuff people like them do.

and then it all boils down to this.... as my mommy told me...

"deal with it..."

can i cry now?

can i scream louder?

can i burn down the whole country?? okay this one's a joke.

i know there's so many things i can do... like cleaning up the house... learning how to cook... doing the laundry... studying... but these things are only done by goodie-goodie people... and i'm evil enough to refuse to do these chores!

i don't want to rush into going to school either... god, i'll be in my last and final year in high school... my senior year!!! *bites nails... shakes violently* i'm not in the mood to go back... why? cause it's the last year.. imma miss my firneds and all that things we all do... makes me wanna cry... well anyway... things i also dread about going back to the walls of mah humble school... is the stupid godforsaken subjects i have to pass and a dozen college entrance exams i have to study for... and the million reasons i should stand up for so my dad will finally allow me to take the course i really want. ahw.... don't make me think about algebra just yet... i thought i could forget that after my sophomore year... but hell no, i even had to review about it for this stupid college entrance test... damn....

oh wait.... i think i better go watch t.v...... the southpark is on...