for a few days now... i have been searching...

searching and searching...

SEARCHING FOR ANSWERS TO MY STUPID PROJECT!!!! damn it...

*sob* before i liked greek mythology but now, i'm not so sure... my social studies teacher made it feel like hades! no one can blame me that i don't have athena's powers or whatever!

gosh!everyone knows how i want to struck her with zeus' lightning bolts... burn her in flames!!!!

now that was a nasty joke... i did not really mean that...

i just got carried away.

but really... it's not that bad... only that i have to stay up just to fight with my brother when he uses the computer first...

no, it's not hard... IT'S UNFAIR!!!!

as my best friend said, LIFE IS SO UNFAIR!

she's even planning to write a book on that... only that just making up stories make her tired... what more if it's a book?! but she said she'll work on that when she finds time... god knows how much i can contribute to that! weeee... ^_^

well this time... i'm gonna talk about me... yeah, you read that correctly...

Me! watakushi! wo! moi!

get it??

okay... to start things off.. i better retell the story of this... uhm... person!

i first met him when we were... i don't really remember! i don't even think he still remembers... it was like... even before either of us started schooling...

then after long years of studying in some other place, our family went back to that same old city and i had to transfer to this hell of a school that my aunt referred for sixth grade... since most of my cousins study there... and so i did... along with my lil bro, we entered the institution! yahoo.... -_-

then along with the other... uh, i better not specify to which group of students he belongs.... i just saw him... again! i instantly recognized him by the look of his eyes... his eyes were like the twitchy-scary type of eyes... it's chinky... it's because he is some kind of a... well... he is... his nationality cannot be revealed! people will know!! but you'll have to choose whether what nationality do you think he has... (chinese, japanese, korean) there! just.. carry on!

then i muttered something like... "is he for real?! i saw him again.. oh well..." honestly, for that encounter, i did not care much... i was like, "oh, it's him.. okay... fine... whatever!" then boom.. nothing..

after a few weeks, (get this: we are not classmates!) i always see him since he tends to loiter around the school when we don't have classes... he's always surrounded by a bunch of cronies! oops... i meant, he was surrounded by his friends... that looked like a bunch of cronies!

then... i talk to him only when i have to.. it's clear he does not remember.. well, it's a very very very long story i should say... then i found out that my best friend... and him... are busmates!!!! well...  my best friend then likes his brother... and i kinda... i dunno if i like him or not.... maybe i did not at that time... ^_^ so my best friend kept on talking and talking endlessly about his bro so i just listen until she mentioned... HIM!

at first i just said, "oh... that guy... so?" but as she already knew me.. she just said, "yeah, that guy.. that guy i'm suspecting that you are in love with!" gosh.. how can she think that way! i am just 12 at that time, i don't even know what love means! well, she just exaggerated...

so moving on... after a few months of what you call... provoking of my best friend, i find myself liking him... cause he's such a bishounen! (so now you get me... about the nationality part... 0_o) then... nothing happened.. just a crush... until one day...

call it coincidence or destiny... i dunno, he's always soemwhere where i happen to be! you know... then i think... what is happening?! my ever-the-talker best friend said that it's a sign... a sign of what?! the year ended with me guessing about what he could be feeling but i don't really care... but i like him...

then came our graduation... i was always looking at him.. or rather, at the back of his head! since i was seated a few rows behind him and to his left.... see how far i am?! okay... as i was saying, then i always looked at him... savoring what would be the last time i could look at him since i will be transferring to another school for high school...

then BOOM! it's all over... i went to another school and he stayed there... so...

wait for the NEXT post... i will post the continuation of the story... since... i have it in my...uhm... other journal! the one i WROTE! with a pen!